Trembling, Nimander forced himself forward. He saw Desra stride after Aranatha.
The glyphs began weeping, and all at once he felt as if time itself was dissolving. Sudden blindness, the terrible sounds of fighting behind him diminishing, as if pulled far away, until only the rush of blood remained, a storm in his head.
Through which, faintly and then rising, came a child’s voice. Singing softly.
Seerdomin emerged from Night, squinted against the mid-morning glare. Silver clouds ahead, heaped above the barrow like the sky’s detritus. Rain slanted down on the mound.
Tulwar in his hand, he hurried on, boots slipping in the salt-crusted mud of the track.
She had gone out, alone.
Spinnock Durav-the only friend he had left-had professed his love for her. But he had not understood-yes, she would refuse his help. But such refusal must be denied. He should have comprehended that.
Gods below, this was not Seerdomin’s fight. She was not his fight. Yet lie found hlmsell driven on, cold wlth fear, feverish with dread, and every-thing that he saw around him seemed to scream its details, as if even the mun-dane truths could burn, could sting like acid in his eyes. Ruts and broken spokes, potsherds, pools of opaque water, exposed roots like the hackles of the earth each one ferociously demanding his attention. We are as it is, they seemed to shout, we are all there is! We are-
Not his fight, but Spinnock had not understood. He was Tiste Andii. He was a creature of centuries and what was avoided one day could be addressed later-decades, millennia, ages later. In their eyes, nothing changed. Nothing could change. They were a fallen people. The dream of getting back up had faded to dust.
She had gone out. Alone. Out where the conspirators strutted in the light of day, insanely plotting the return of suffering. Where they abused the sanctuary of an indifferent god. Maybe she was now back among her kind-if that was true, then Spinnock Durav deserved to hear the truth of that.
A rat slithered into the ditch a few strides ahead. He drew closer to the filth of the encampment, its stench so foul not even the rain could wash it away.
Would he be challenged? He hoped so. If the conspirators hid themselves, he might have trouble rooting them out. And if she decided to hide, well, he would have to kick through every decrepit hut and shelter, into every leaking tent and rust-seized wagon.
Birdsong drifted down from the trees of the slope on the opposite side of the camp, the sound startlingly clear. Tendrils of smoke from rain-dampened hearths undulated upward, each one solid as a serpent in Seerdomin’s eyes. He was, he realized, walking into their nest.
But Spinnock, you need not do this, you need not even know of this. This is a human affair, and if she is willing then yes, I will drag her free of it. Back to you. One can he saved and that should be enough.
He wondered if the Redeemer ever saw things that way. Taking one’ soul into his embrace with a thousand yearning others looking on-but no, he did not choose, did not select one over another. He took them all.
Seerdomin realized he did not care either way. This god was not for him. Redemption had never been his reason for kneeling before that barrow. I was lonely. I thought he might be the same. Damn you, High Priestess, why didn’t you fust leave me alone!
Not my mess.
Spinnock, you owe me, and you will never know. I will say nothing-let this rain wash the blood from my hands-
He had begun this march half drunk, but nothing of that remained. Now, everything was on fire.
Reaching the slope of the camp’s main avenue, he began the ascent. The rain was fine as mist, yet he was quickly soaked through, steam rising from his forearms. The ground gave queasily beneath his boots with every step. He arrived at the crest leaning far forward, scrabbling in his haste. Straightening, something flashed into his vision. He heard a snap, a crunch that exploded in his head, and then nothing.
Gradithan stood over the sprawled form of Seerdomin, staring down at the smashed, bloodied face. Monkrat crept closer and crouched down beside the body.
‘He lives. He will drown in his blood if I do not roll him over, Urdo. What is your wish?’
‘Yes, push him over-I want him alive, for now at least. Take his weapons, bind his limbs, then drag him to the Sacred Tent.’
Gradithan licked his lips, tasting the staleness of dried kelyk. He wanted more, fresh, bitter and sweet, but he needed his mind. Sharp, awake, aware of everything.
As Monkrat directed two of his Urdomen to attend to the Seerdomin, Gradithan set off for the Sacred Tent. Sanctified ground, yes, but only temporary. Soon, they would have the barrow itself. The barrow, and the ignorant godling within it.
Along the track, the once-worshippers of the Redeemer knelt as he passed. Some moaned in the dregs of the night’s dance. Others stared at the mud in front of their knees, heads hanging, brown slime drooling down from their gaping mouths. Oh, this might seem like corruption, but Gradithan wasn’t interested in such misconceptions.
The Dying God was more important than Black Coral and its morose over-lords. More important than the Redeemer and his pathetic cult. The Dying God’s song was a song of pain, and was not pain the curse of mortality?
He had heard of another cult, a foreign one, devoted to someone called the Crippled God.
Perhaps, Monkrat had ventured that morning, there is a trend.
There was something blasphemous in that observation, and Gradithan reminded himself that he would have to have the mage beaten-but not yet. Gradithan needed Monkrat, at least for now.
He entered the Sacred Tent.
Yes, she was still dancing, writhing now on the earthen floor, too exhausted perhaps to stand, yet the sensual motions were still powerful enough to take away Gradithan’s breath. It did not matter any more that she had been a Child of the Dead Seed. No one could choose their parents, after all. Besides, she had been adopted now. By the Dying God, by the blessed pain and ecstasy it delivered.
Let her dance on, yes, until the gate was forced open.
Gradithan lifted his head, sniffed the air-oh, the blood was being spilled, the sacrifice fast closing on the threshold. C7ose now.
The Dying God bled. Mortal followers drank that blood. Then spilled it out, transformed, so that the Dying God could take it once more within himself. This was the secret truth behind all blood sacrifice. The god gives and the mortal givesback, All the rest… nothing more than ornate dressing, nothing more than ob-fuscation.
Die, my distant friends. Die in your multitudes. We are almost there. ‘You are dying.’
Seerdomin opened his eyes. An unfamiliar face stared down at him.
‘You are bleeding into your brain, Segda Travos. They mean to abuse you. Tor-ture you with terrible sights-the Urdo named Gradithan believes you a traitor. He wants you to suffer, but you will defy him that pleasure, for you are dying.’
‘Who-what…’
‘I am Itkovian. I am the Redeemer.’
‘I-I am sorry.’
The man smiled and Seerdomin could see how that smile belonged to these gentle features, the kind eyes. Such compassion was… wrong.
‘Perhaps it seems that way, but you are strong-your spirit is very strong, Segda Travos. You believe I am without true compassion. You believe I embrace suffering out of selfish need, to feed a hunger, an addiction.’ ItkOvian’s soft eyes shifted away. ‘Perhaps you are right.’
Seerdomin slowly sat up. And saw a domed sky that glittered as if with millions upon millions of stars, a solid cluster vying for every space, so that every splinter and whorl of darkness seemed shrunken, in retreat. The vision made his head spin and he quickly looked down. And found he was kneeling on a ground composed entirely of coins. Copper, tin, brass, a few sprinkles of silver, fewer still of gold. Gems gleamed here and there. ‘We are,’ he said in an awed whisper, ‘within your barrow.’