MORRIS HOME FURNISHINGS.
He didn't remember that. But how could he be sure? He felt confused. How could he tell?
The cab let him off in front of the apartment house. Paine stood for a moment, looking around him. Down at the end of the block the owner of the Italian delicatessen was out putting up the awning. Had he ever noticed a delicatessen there before?
He could not remember.
What had happened to the big meat market across the street? There was nothing but neat little houses; older houses that looked like they'd been there plenty long. Had a meat market ever been there? The houses looked solid.
In the next block the striped pole of a barbershop glittered. Had there always been a barbershop there?
Maybe it had always been there. Maybe, and maybe not. Everything was shifting. New things were coming into existence, others going away. The past was altering, and memory was tied to the past. How could he trust his memory? How could he be sure?
Terror gripped him. Laura. His world…
Paine raced up the front steps and pushed open the door of the apartment house. He hurried up the carpeted stairs to the second floor. The door of the apartment was unlocked. He pushed it open and entered, his heart in his mouth, praying silently.
The living-room was dark and silent. The shades were half pulled. He glanced around wildly. The light blue couch, magazines on its arms. The low blond-oak table. The television set. But the room was empty.
"Laura!" he gasped.
Laura hurried from the kitchen, eyes wide with alarm. "Bob! What are you doing home? Is anything the matter?"
Paine relaxed, sagging with relief. "Hello, honey." He kissed her, holding her tight against him. She was warm and substantial; completely real. "No, nothing's wrong. Everything's fine."
"Are you sure?"
"I'm sure." Paine took off his coat shakily and dropped it over the back of the couch. He wandered around the room, examining things, his confidence returning. His familiar blue couch, cigarette burns on its arms. His ragged footstool. His desk where he did his work at night. His fishing rods leaning up against the wall behind the bookcase.
The big television set he had purchased only last month; that was safe, too.
Everything, all he owned, was untouched. Safe. Unharmed.
"Dinner won't be ready for half an hour," Laura murmured anxiously, unfastening her apron. "I didn't expect you home so early. I've just been sitting around all day. I did clean the stove. Some salesman left a sample of a new cleaner."
"That's okay." He examined a favorite Renoir print on the wall. "Take your time. It's good to see all these things again. I -"
From the bedroom a crying sound came. Laura turned quickly. "I guess we woke up Jimmy."
"Jimmy?"
Laura laughed. "Darling, don't you remember your own son?"
"Of course," Paine murmured, annoyed. He followed Laura slowly into the bedroom. "Just for a minute everything seemed strange." He rubbed his forehead, frowning. "Strange and unfamiliar. Sort of out of focus."
They stood by the crib, gazing down at the baby. Jimmy glared back up at his mother and dad.
"It must have been the sun," Laura said. "It's so terribly hot outside."
"That must be it. I'm okay now." Paine reached down and poked at the baby. He put his arm around his wife, hugging her to him. "It must have been the sun," he said. He looked down into her eyes and smiled.
The World She Wanted
Half-dozing, Larry Brewster contemplated the litter of cigarette-butts, empty beer-bottles, and twisted match-folders heaped on the table before him. He reached out and adjusted one beer-bottle – thereby achieving just the right effect.
In the back of the Wind-Up the small dixieland jazz combo played noisily. The harsh jazz-sound mixed with the murmur of voices, the semi-darkness, the clink of glasses at the bar. Larry Brewster sighed in happy contentment. "This," he stated, "is Nirvana." He nodded his head slowly, agreeing with the words uttered. "Or at least the seventh level of zen-buddhist heaven."
"There aren't seven levels in the zen-buddhist heaven," a competent female voice corrected, from directly above him.
"That's a fact," Larry admitted, reflecting on the matter. "I was speaking metaphorically, not literally."
"You should be more careful; you should mean exactly what you say."
"And say exactly what you mean?" Larry peered up. "Have I had the pleasure of knowing you, young lady?"
The slender, golden-haired girl dropped into the seat across the table from Larry, her eyes sharp and bright in the half-gloom of the bar. She smiled at him, white teeth sparkling. "No," she said. "We've never met; our time has just now arrived."
"Our – our time?" Larry drew himself up slowly, pulling his lanky frame together. There was something in the girl's bright, competent face that vaguely alarmed him, penetrating his alcoholic haze. Her smile was too calm, too assured. "Just exactly what do you mean?" Larry murmured. "What's this all about?"
The girl slipped out of her coat, revealing full, rounded breasts and a supple figure. "I'll have a martini," she said. "And by the way – my name is Allison Holmes."
"Larry Brewster." Larry studied the girl intently. "What did you say you wanted?"
"A martini. Dry." Allison smiled coolly across at him. "And get one for yourself, why don't you?"
Larry grunted under his breath. He signaled to the waiter. "A dry martini, Max."
"Okay, Mr Brewster."
A few minutes later Max returned and set a martini glass on the table. When he had gone, Larry leaned toward the blonde-haired girl. "Now, Miss Holmes -"
"None for you?"
"None for me." Larry watched her sip her drink. Her hands were small and dainty. She wasn't bad-looking, but he didn't like the self-satisfied calmness in her eyes. "What's this business about our time having come? Let me in on it."
"It's very simple. I saw you sitting here and I knew you were the one. In spite of the messy table." She wrinkled her nose at the litter of bottles and match-folders. "Why don't you have them clear it off?"
"Because I enjoy it. You knew I was the one? Which one?" Larry was getting interested. "Go on."
"Larry, this is a very important moment in my life." Allison gazed around her. "Who would think I'd find you in a place like this? But that's the way it's always been for me. This is only one link of a great chain going back – well, as far back as I can remember."
"What chain is that?"
Allison laughed. "Poor Larry. You don't understand." She leaned toward him, her lovely eyes dancing. "You see, Larry, I know something no one else knows – no one else in this world. Something I learned when I was a little girl. Something -"
"Wait a minute. What do you mean by 'this world'? You mean there are nicer worlds than this? Better worlds? Like in Plato? This world is only a -"
"Certainly not!" Allison frowned. "This is the best world, Larry. The best of all possible worlds."
"Oh. Herbert Spencer."
"The best of all possible worlds – for me." She smiled at him, a cold, secret smile.
"Why for you?"
There was something almost predatory in the girl's finely-chiseled face as she answered. "Because," she said calmly, "this is my world."
Larry raised an eyebrow. "Your world?" Then he grinned good-naturedly. "Sure it is, baby; it belongs to all of us." He waved expansively around at the room. "Your world, my world, the banjo player's world -"
"No." Allison shook her head firmly. "No, Larry. My world; it belongs to me. Everything and everybody. All mine." She moved her chair around until she was close by him. He could smell her perfume, warm and sweet and tantalizing. "Don't you understand? This is mine. All these things – they're here for me; for my happiness."