I was surprised both by the word and the way he said it. "Why contemptible?"
"When you are my age, you feel you have the right to indulge in whatever appeals to you. I don't think that it's wrong but it can be pathetic. Unfortunately, Mr. Bayer, I am one of those fools who reads about other's lives for solace because I made such a botch of my own. Although it's disgusting to take consolation in another's pain, it is reassuring to know that the great stumbled as badly as we did. Would you like something to drink?"
What followed was one of the most engrossing afternoons I had spent in years. There are people who are as distinctive and delicious as a great meal. Edward Durant was one of those people. He had led an incredible life, but instead of showing it off as he had every right to do, he handed it over like a gift to be used whatever way you liked.
He was seventy-three and dying. Somewhere in the middle of the afternoon he mentioned that but only as a point of reference. It didn't seem important to him, certainly not in light of the other things he wanted to say. His wife and son were dead. He had failed both of them and that was his greatest sadness. Until their deaths, he had been a successful, confident man.
"Everything important is learned too late, Sam. The tragedy of being old is you can no longer apply what's taken you so long to learn. The thing scientists should work toward is a method that would allow us to skip to the end of our lives for a short while and then come back. There is no context in the now, only greed and emotion."
He had gone to Swarthmore but dropped out to become a fighter pilot in Korea. At the end of the war he returned to college for his degree and ended up a Rhodes scholar. He just missed being an alternate on the Olympic boxing team. One of the greatest moments of his life was sparring two rounds with the welterweight champion of the world, Benny "Kid" Paret in Stillman's Gym. "How often are we allowed the privilege of having a master's full attention for six minutes? I argued cases in front of the Supreme Court, but it was nothing to seeing Paret's eyes size me up and then kick my ass."
It took some time for us to get around to his son, but as in everything else, he was painfully candid. "I was a terrible father for all the reasons I mentioned. I was like a dishonest shoe salesman with Edward. You know, the kind who assures you the shoes you're trying on that are the wrong size will by some miracle fit beautifully as soon as you wear them around awhile. My son was always a serious, steadfast boy who didn't need any encouragement to do what was right. I was idiotic enough to think he still needed both discipline and guidance. Although it's not an excuse, you must remember this was in the fifties when all of us were so sure what we were doing was correct. Everything we needed to know was in books – Dr. Spock, David Riesman, Margaret Mead. The only thing we needed to do was connect the dots and we'd be home free."
The doorbell rang. Durant was surprised. While he rose to answer it, I asked where the bathroom was. If it hadn't been rude, I would have stayed in there a long time. On the walls were framed letters from famous biographers – Boswell, Leon Edel, Henri Troyat. Intriguingly, the more recent ones were personal letters to Durant answering questions he'd apparently had about the biographers' subjects. Richard Ellmann's letter about James Joyce's favorite music was alone worth the price of admission.
When I finally pulled myself away from the room, another surprise was waiting at the front door. Durant was standing there laughing with Carmen Pierce, the infamous defense attorney. She represented, among other flakes and dangerous beings, the Malda Vale religious sect. If only Veronica had been around they could have swapped stories and gossip.
I was introduced to the flamboyant lawyer who seemed to be on television with one client or another every time I turned it on. We chatted awhile. I told her a friend of mine had been a member of the sect before they went on that notorious last airplane ride to oblivion.
"I don't envy you, Mr. Bayer." She smiled.
"Oh really? Why's that?"
"Because the more I discover about the Malda Vale, the more dubious I am of its members, past and present."
"But you're representing them!" I couldn't believe she was saying this out loud.
"No, I'm representing an idea. Religious persecution is not permitted in this country. What the government did to the Malda Vale is illegal. I don't have to like them to represent them. That's part of the fun of being a lawyer.
"Edward, I must go. Thank you so much for your help. Those articles were invaluable."
She drove off in a ruby red Jaguar while the two of us watched until her car was out of sight.
"Carmen is a great woman. I don't often agree with her methods, but her grasp of the law is phenomenal."
"Are you helping her with something?"
He put his hand on my shoulder and steered me back into the house. "No, not really. We've known each other for years. Now and again she calls up with a question and I do what I can. She lives just down the road in Nyack. Luckily when one retires, one's profession becomes a hobby and with that sudden shift of perspective, it can become interesting again."
"Your son wanted to be a lawyer."
"Not really. My son wanted to please me, which I selfishly encouraged. Another of the great mistakes of my life. He was a genuinely good poet, you know. Published two poems in The Transatlantic Review when he was twenty. An important magazine in its time! I'll find those poems and send them to you. They should be in your book. They'll show a side of him not many people knew about."
"What did you think of Pauline?"
He took a long time to answer. "She frightened me. She was one of the most erotic women I ever met. He called her Beehive and it was a perfect nickname. Always buzzing around, and you knew she could give you a hell of a sting! She made me admire my son more than ever. He had the courage to pursue and win this sizzling woman. Never, even when I was young and full of myself, would I have had the guts to go after someone like her. And she loved him! It was so plain. They were mad for each other."
"Did you know they were married?" I expected the question to stop or at least make him pause, but he only nodded.
"Yes Sam, I knew. You really have done your homework."
Edward Jr. had told his father the last time they'd ever seen each other. He must have been planning his suicide for some time because in that last conversation he said everything that was on his mind and in his heart. The single thing he did not talk about was how the other inmates were abusing him. He looked different from in the past – thinner and grayer, but the old man thought it was because the boy hadn't adjusted to the bleak life in prison.
"I had friends in the penal system. They assured me they would arrange it so Edward would be protected. But a large prison is like a city. No one can be watched all the time. He was doing hard time. He was surrounded by bad men."
"Do you think Gordon Cadmus ordered it?"
"For years I did. I was convinced Cadmus was guilty of everything. I'm sure you know Pauline and he were lovers. She was still sleeping with him when she began going out with Edward. For years I wanted the explanation to be simple and there was one: Pauline was with Cadmus, then she left him for my son. When I was assigned to investigate Cadmus, he killed her because he was afraid she knew something about his affairs or simply because he was jealous. He found the perfect time to kill her and frame an innocent man. Edward was sent to jail for the crime, suffered terrible abuse, and committed suicide.
"Cadmus Cadmus Cadmus. I was furious when they shot him. Banal little gangland killing, and you know what? He wasn't even the target. One of the other dinner guests was. I wanted him for myself. I wanted to take the law of the United States of America and shove it so far up his ass he would have had a second tongue. But then he was dead and there was nothing more I could do."