'I heard shouting.'
The three of them turned.
Alfie stood in the doorway. He was growing fast, but he was so thin his ill-fitting clothes hung off him, his cuffs and ankles showing. His face was blotchy, as if he had been crying. He actually had his letter from the Obligatory Work Service programme in his hand. Ernst imagined him carrying it around all day, as his father had his anger.
Fred made an obvious effort to calm down. 'It's all right, son. We weren't shouting.'
'Yes, you were. It's my fault, isn't it?'
Fred crossed to him and took his son in his massive arms, his sleeves still rolled up. 'Oh, no, son, it's not like that. We're upset about you having to go off to work, but it's not your fault, don't ever think that.'
Ernst couldn't meet Alfie's yearning eyes. They both knew that Alfie's best chance of being spared was to get a medical certificate, but such exemptions tended to favour the well-connected and wealthy. He said, 'Alfie, it is only work. It will not be so bad. You will be with others of your age, and older.'
'You see,' Fred said. He mock-punched Alfie on the chest, and pinched his arms. 'A bit of outdoor work. Better than school, eh?'
'Will we get more food?' Alfie asked Ernst.
'I do not know. I will try to find out.'
'Well, there's food now,' Irma said. She had the roast on a big serving plate; the crackling was golden brown. 'And that's enough fuss for now. Fred, come over here and carve. And Alfie, will you tell your sister to-'
There was a knock at the door.
They all froze. Fred caught Ernst's eye, and Ernst knew what he was thinking.
Viv came running down the stairs. She seemed excited, not alarmed. 'Was that a knock? Who is it?'
'Shut up.' Fred walked heavily to the door, and opened it.
The voice was a woman's, her English heavily accented. 'I am looking for Ernst Trojan. I – he used to lodge here-'
Ernst ran to the door, pushing past Fred. 'Claudine?'
XXII
She was dressed in a slim-fitting coat, stockings and black hat: a smart outfit but mud-splashed and torn. She looked exhausted. And an immense bruise marred one side of her face. 'My God, Claudine, what happened to you? Come in, come in out of the cold-' He took her arm and led her into the kitchen. In the light the bruise on her face looked even worse, and he could see how her stockings were snagged.
The Millers stood around staring.
'I'm sorry,' Ernst said in English. 'Fred, Irma, this is a friend. Her name is Claudine Rimmer, she is from France.'
'I didn't have anywhere else to go,' Claudine said in German. 'I couldn't think-'
Fred snapped, 'This is my house, and you'll speak English.'
'Yes,' said Ernst hastily. 'I am sorry. Of course.'
Irma got over her shock. 'Oh, never mind him. Come in. Let's get that coat off you. My, it's pretty.'
Claudine forced a smile. 'It is torn,' she said in English.
'Nothing that a bit of make do and mend won't see to.' Irma handed the coat and Claudine's hat to Viv. 'Here, love, hang these up.'
Viv took the clothes with a scowl and flounced out.
'Now you come and sit down. Fred, you put that roast back in the oven.'
Alfie stared at the meat. 'Aren't we going to eat?'
'There'll be time for that later. Fred, put a bit of paper on the meat so it doesn't dry out.' Irma bustled off to put the kettle on the range.
Ernst sat with Claudine. He had not seen her since that October day at Hastings, when he had fled from her. Seeing her now, in this condition, he felt ashamed. And it was very, very strange to have her sitting here now, the girl he had fallen in love with in sunny Boulogne, a year and a world away. But that was the war for you, the endless, overpowering, abhuman war, mixing everything up.
He said, 'So you ran away. Yes?'
'Me? Run? In these shoes?' That was the old Claudine.
He smiled at her. 'Do you want a cigarette?'
'Please.'
Irma came over now and inspected Claudine's face, pushing back her hair. Claudine flinched. 'That's a nice shiner you've got, love.'
'I walked into a lamp-post. The blackout. You know.'
Fred just glared, disbelieving. But Irma said, 'Well, we've all done that. I could send Fred or Alfie for the doctor-'
'No,' said Claudine quickly. 'It is just a bruise.'
'Well, I'll get you some iodine, and a sponge to clean you up a bit. You just sit there, darling. Fred, you make some tea. Get some fresh leaves from the caddy; that last lot are as old as last Christmas.'
Fred was still putting the roast in the oven. He said, 'Bloody hell.' But he complied, fetching down a fresh mug from the shelf
Viv came back in. She sat beside Ernst, as close as she could get, and she glared at Claudine. 'So what's your name again?'
'Rimmer. Claudine Rimmer.'
'Claudine. How do you know Ernst? What do you do for a living, Claudine?'
'I work as a translator for the occupation authority.'
'Oh, yes? I'll bet I know what you really do.'
'Viv!' Irma came back with a bottle of iodine solution and a rag; she poured hot water from the kettle into a bowl. 'You don't speak to people like that.'
'Come on, Mum, look at her! She's French!' She wrinkled her nose. 'And she's drenched in perfume.'
'Enough. Your room, Vivien. Now.'
Viv stood up. 'I'll be glad, I can't stand the stink in here.' She marched out, lips pulled into a pout. She had come and gone in a minute; it was as if a storm had passed through the room.
Fred set a mug of tea before Claudine. She closed her hands around the mug, as if grateful for the warmth, but did not drink.
Irma started working at the bruise with the iodine and water. 'You mustn't mind Viv. It's just that she's, well, she's fifteen.'
'I was fifteen once,' Claudine said. She drew on her cigarette and eyed Ernst. 'But she likes you, I think. She is jealous, perhaps. Of course she was right about me.' That stunned them all to silence, Ernst embarrassed, Fred and Irma shocked, Alfie wide-eyed. 'It is best to be truthful, is it not? Not to hide behind lies.'
'Bloody hell,' said Fred. 'Bloody, bloody hell. What's it coming to, eh? That's what I want to know.'
Irma, resolute, kept on with her first aid. 'Don't mind him. We don't all get pleasant choices, do we, in this war?'
'That is true.' Claudine flinched as Irma dabbed on the iodine.
''And whatever you've, you know, you didn't deserve this done to you, did you?'
'Who was it?' Ernst asked.
'English,' she said. 'A Landwacht. In the closed houses we are expected to entertain them too. When I would not do what he asked – well. He grew frustrated.'
'So why did you leave?' Ernst said. The military brothels were supervised, and the girls given medical attention. 'You could have reported this.'
'But he would have reported what I did to him. I did fight back, Ernst.'
'Good for you.'
'My punishment would have been harsh. I have not always obeyed rules before. So I fled.'
'Can we eat now?' Alfie asked pitiably.
'In a minute,' his mother said. 'Maybe Miss Rimmer would like to join us? There's enough meat for another plate.'
'Now wait a minute,' said Fred, and he loomed over the table. 'Wait just a bloody minute. I hope you're not thinking of letting this frog stay.'
'Fred,' Irma snapped.
Ernst said quickly, 'She has nowhere else to go, Fred.'
'We ought to hand her over to the bloody Gestapo, that's what we should do, or we'll all be for it!'
'Let it just be for the night, then. I will sort something out.'
'Oh, you'll sort her out, but you won't get my little boy off the OWS levy, will you?'
'That's different.'
'I bet it bloody is. Shall I cut him a hole so you can fuck him, will that make you help him?'