At the airport, I bought a couple of magazines-the new Car and Driver and The New Yorker. I had my doubts I’d be able to concentrate on either of them, but the first one would have lots of pictures of shiny cars and the latter would have cartoons. Sitting in the stale, soulless departure lounge at LaGuardia, I got out my cell and put in a call to Susanne at work.

She’d been working with Bob nearly two years now. I gathered, listening to Syd, it was not always the best of working relationships. And now that everyone was living together as one big happy family, troubles from the lot sometimes erupted at home. For example, Bob was often critical of the way Suze kept the books. Reporting all your income, he felt, was highly overrated.

Sitting shoulder to shoulder in the crowded departure lounge didn’t afford me much privacy, so I relinquished my seat and walked over by one of the windows where I could watch jets landing and taxiing in.

“Bob’s Motors,” Susanne answered. There was no joy in her voice. There hadn’t been for several weeks now.

“It’s me,” I said.

“Hey,” Susanne said, her voice sharpening, cautious. A call from me, these days, could mean very good news or very bad news.

“I’m at the airport,” I said. “I’m going to Seattle.”

A short intake of breath. “Tell me.”

“I have a lead, not a bad lead, that Sydney might be out there.”

I filled her in. She listened. She interrupted with a couple of questions. Had I told Kip Jennings? Could I believe this woman on the phone?

Yes. And I hoped so.

“I’ll pay for your flight,” she said.

“Don’t worry about that.”

“I should be going with you.”

“You need to take it easy.”

“I’m not a fucking invalid, you know.”

“Actually, at the moment, you are.”

“I’m doing pretty good with the cane. I may not be ready for the marathon yet, but-”

“It’s okay. Just let me do this.”

“I know. I’d just slow you down. I just hope… I hope I haven’t fucked something up permanent. The hip’s killing me, and the knee still hurts like a son of a bitch.”

“It just takes time.”

“Thanks for not rubbing it in.”

“Rubbing what in?”

“About Bob, about my doing a stupid thing like parasailing, thinking I’m eighteen or something. It shows a lot of restraint, not making wisecracks about it.”

“Doesn’t mean I’m not thinking them,” I said. She laughed softly. When she didn’t say anything for a moment, I said, “Suze.”

“Yeah, I’m here.”

“What’s going on? With Evan?”

“I really can’t get into it, Tim. I mean, he’s Bob son. What am I going to say?”

“I can tell something’s going on. When he came out of the office, he was furious.”

“He’s… he’s a good kid, mostly.”

“Mostly.”

“He’s just… He hardly ever comes out of his room. He’s on the computer all the time.”

“Kids do that, talking to their friends.”

“No,” she said quietly. “It’s something else.”

“Porn,” I said. “He’s whacking off to porn.”

“No,” Susanne said, stretching the word out, wondering. “I don’t think it’s that either. I think it’s something… worse.”

“Have you talked to Bob about this?”

“I’ve told him… that there are things I’ve noticed.”

“What? What have you noticed?”

“I think Evan’s stealing.”

“The petty cash,” I said. “And you mentioned your watch went missing, and money from your purse.”

“All of that. Bob says I’m just stressed out, that it’s making me absentminded, forgetful.”

“You think he’s right?”

“I think he’s full of shit. And the watch came back. I know exactly where it was, in my drawer, and it was gone. And this morning, it was back.”

“What do you make of that?”

“I think Evan might have pawned it. And I think Bob bought it back.”

“He’s covering for him.”

“Bob’s very defensive about Evan.”

“Move out, Suze,” I said. “Get out of there. Go back to your own house.”

She shot back, “Oh yeah, that’s the answer. Don’t try to work things out, just wash my hands of them. Is that what you’d like?”

“You have enough to worry about. You don’t need to be living under the same roof with some kid who’s stealing from you.”

“I can’t talk about this. I can’t. Just find Sydney.”

“Okay,” I said.

“You know,” she said, “I really blew it with you.”

I didn’t say anything. I was watching one of the terminal clocks. My flight was due to board shortly.

“I never should have pushed you,” she said. “Our life was good.”

“I know.”

“I got caught up in the whole… I thought, if we had more, that’d be good for all of us, right? I mean, sure, I like nice things, I admit that. I was thinking about myself, but I also believed that what I wanted would be good for all of us, good for Sydney. You’d make it big, we could get her nice things, a bigger room, a top-notch college, a better future, you know?”

“Sure.”

“So I pushed you. But it wasn’t what you wanted. It wasn’t what you were good at. I should have been smart enough to see that from the beginning.”

“Suze, you don’t have to-”

“And then it all went to shit. I pushed you because I wanted more for us, for Sydney, and ended up with so much less. Sometimes, I think she hates us. Hates me. For letting things fall apart. I keep thinking that maybe, if we’d stayed together, this never would have happened. Syd wouldn’t have left.”

“There’s no way to know that.”

“Somehow, things would have been different.”

“I think they’re calling my flight,” I said.

“You’ll call.”

“I promise.”

THE THING ABOUT DRIVING IS, you feel like you’re doing something to get yourself there. You’re in charge. You’re in control. It helps funnel the tension. You’re reading the map, finding a different radio station, looking for an opening so you can pass a pickup driven by an old guy in a hat.

But in a plane, you just sit there and slowly go out of your mind.

Of course, driving to Seattle was not an option. A six-hour flight was preferable to a three-day drive. But the fact that I could do nothing more than look out the window, leaf through my magazines, or watch in-flight entertainment that, even with headphones, could barely be heard over the drone of the engines made the trip interminable.

But it did finally end. While I may have been screaming in my head while I waited for everyone in the seats ahead of me to get their luggage together and exit the plane, I managed to keep my cool. Once I was off the plane, I powered up my cell phone and checked to see whether I had any messages.

I didn’t.

I found my way to the taxi stand, got in the back of one, and said to the driver, “Second Chance.” I offered him the address, but he waved me off.

“I’ve been driving a cab in Seattle for twenty-two years,” he said. “I know my way around.”

I settled into the seat, gazed out at the unfamiliar territory, feeling like a stranger in a strange land.

I’m coming, Syd. I’m coming.