“It was good, but my sister’s still a wreck. She wants everything flawless, and we found out that Nancy is pregnant and her bridesmaid’s dress isn’t going to fit.”
“So what? She’ll just get it adjusted.”
“That’s what I said, but you know how she is. She’s making a big deal out of everything.”
Catherine put her hands on her hips and stretched her back, making a small grimace as she did so.
“You okay?”
“Just stiff, is all. I was tired the whole time I was there, and my back’s been kind of achy for a couple of days.”
She started toward the front door, Garrett right beside her.
“Catherine, I just wanted to tell you that I’m sorry about the way I acted before you left. I’m glad you went, but I’m even happier that you’re back.”
“Garrett, talk to me.”
She stared at him, concerned. Finally he spoke:
“Theresa . . . it’s just so hard right now. The things I’ve been going through . . .”
He trailed off, and Theresa suddenly knew what he was talking about. She felt her stomach tighten.
“Is this about Catherine? Is that what this is about?”
“No, it’s just that . . .” He paused, and she knew with a sudden sinking sureness that she’d been right.
“It is, isn’t it? You don’t want to even try with us . . . because of Catherine.”
“You just don’t understand.”
Despite herself, she felt a flash of anger. “Oh, I understand. You were able to spend time with me this week, simply because you knew I’d be leaving. And then, once I was gone, you could go back to what you had before. I was just a fling, wasn’t I?”
He shook his head. “No, you weren’t. You weren’t a fling. I really care about you—”
she stared hard at him. “But not enough to even try to make this work.”
He looked at her, pain evident in his eyes. “Don’t be like this. . . .”
“How should I be? Understanding? Do you want me to simply say, ‘Oh, okay, Garrett, we’ll just end it here because it’s difficult and we won’t be able to see each other very much. I understand. It was nice meeting you.’ Is that what you want me to say?”
“No, that’s not what I want you to say.”
“Then what do you want? I’ve already said I’m willing to try . . . I’ve already said that I’d like to try—”
He shook his head, unable to meet her eyes. Theresa could feel tears beginning to form.
“Look, Garrett, I know you lost a wife. I know you suffered terribly for it. But you’re acting like a martyr now. You’ve got your whole life ahead of you. Don’t throw it all away by living in the past.”
“I’m not living in the past,” he said defensively.
Theresa fought back her tears with effort. Her voice softened.
“Garrett . . . I may not have lost a wife, but I did lose someone I really cared about, too. I know all about pain and hurt. But to be quite frank, I’m tired of being alone all the time. It’s been over three years for me—just like you—and I’m tired of it. I’m ready to go on now and find someone special to be with. And you should, too.”
“I know that. Don’t you think I know that?”
“Right now, I’m not so sure. Something wonderful has happened between us, and I don’t want us to lose sight of that.”
he paused for a long moment.
“You’re right,” he began, struggling with his words. “In my mind, I know you’re right. But my heart . . . I just don’t know.”
“But what about my heart? Doesn’t that matter to you at all?”
The way she looked at him made his throat tighten.
“Of course it does. It matters more than you think.” When he reached out to take her hand, she flinched and he saw how much he had hurt her. He spoke gently, trying to control his own emotions.
“Theresa, I’m sorry for putting you—putting us—through this on our last night. I didn’t mean for it to happen. Believe me, you weren’t a fling for me. God—you were anything but that. I told you I really care about you, and I mean that.”
He opened his arms, his eyes pleading with her to come to his side. She hesitated for a second, then finally leaned into him, myriad conflicting feelings rushing through her. She lowered her face onto his chest, not wanting to see his expression. He kissed her hair, speaking softly as his lips fluttered over her.
“I do care. I care so much that it scares me. I haven’t felt like this in so long, it’s almost like I’ve forgotten how important another person could be to me. I don’t think I could just let you go and forget you, and I don’t want to. And I definitely don’t want us to end right now.” For a moment there was only the soft, even sound of his breathing. Finally he whispered, “I promise to do everything I can to see you. And we’ll try to make it work.”
The tenderness in his voice made her tears begin to fall. He went on, almost too quietly for her to hear.
“Theresa, I think I’m in love with you.”
I think I’m in love with you , she heard again. I think . . .
I think . . .
not wanting to respond, she simply whispered: “Just hold me, okay? Let’s not talk anymore.”
* * *
They made love first thing in the morning and held each other until the sun had risen high enough to let them know it was time for Theresa to get ready. Even though she hadn’t spent much time at all at the hotel and had brought her suitcase over to Garrett’s house, she hadn’t checked out, just in case Kevin or Deanna called.
They showered together, and after dressing, Garrett made Theresa breakfast while she finished packing her things. Zipping her suitcase, Theresa heard the sound of sizzling in the kitchen as the smell of bacon wafted through the house. After drying her hair and putting on some makeup, she walked into the kitchen.
Garrett was sitting at the table, drinking coffee. He winked at her when she entered. On the counter he’d left a cup by the coffeemaker, and she poured herself some. Breakfast was already on the table—scrambled eggs, bacon, and toast. Theresa sat in the chair closest to him.
“I didn’t know what you wanted for breakfast,” he said, motioning toward the table.
“I’m not hungry, Garrett, if that’s all right with you.”
He smiled. “That’s fine. I’m not that hungry, either.”
She got up from her chair and went to him, sitting in his lap. She wrapped her arms around him and buried her face in his neck. He held her tightly in return, running his hands through her hair.
Finally she pulled back. Their time in the sun this week had left her tanned. In her jeans shorts and clean white shirt, she looked like a carefree teenager. for a moment she stared down at the small flower designs stitched into her sandals. Her suitcase and purse stood waiting next to the bedroom door.
“My plane leaves soon, and I’ve still got to check out of the hotel and return the rental car,” she said.
“Are you sure you don’t want me to come with you?”
She nodded, her lips pursed. “No, I’ll be rushing just to catch my flight as it is, and besides, you’d have to follow me in your truck. We can say good-bye just as easily here.”
“I’m going to call you tonight.”
She smiled. “I was hoping you would.”
Her eyes began to well with tears, and he pulled her close.
“I’m going to miss having you here,” he said as she started to cry in earnest. He brushed away the tears with his fingers, his touch light against her skin.
“And I’ll miss having you cook for me,” she whispered, feeling foolish.
He laughed, breaking the tension. “Don’t be so sad. We’re going to see each other again in a couple of weeks, aren’t we?”
“Unless you’re having second thoughts.”
He smiled. “I’ll be counting the days. And this time you’re going to bring Kevin, right?”