Dunworthy nodded, carefully, so the aching wouldn't begin again.
"When you woke up the other times, you didn't know me at all." He rummaged in the drawer of the bedstand and handed Dunworthy his spectacles. "You were awfully bad. I thought you were going to pack it in. You kept calling me Kivrin."
"What day is it?" Dunworthy asked.
"The twelfth," Colin said impatiently. "You asked me that this morning. Don't you remember?"
Dunworthy put on his spectacles. "No."
"Don't you remember anything that's happened?"
I remember how I failed Kivrin, he thought. I remember leaving her in 1348.
Colin scooted the chair closer and laid the book on the bed. "The sister told me you wouldn't because of the fever," he said, but he sounded faintly angry at Dunworthy, as if it were his fault. "She wouldn't let me in to see you and she wouldn't tell me anything. I think that's completely unfair. They make you sit in a waiting room, and they keep telling you to go home, there's nothing you can do here, and when you ask questions, they say, 'The doctor will be with you in a moment,' and won't tell you anything. They treat you like a child. I mean, you have to find out sometime, don't you? Do you know what Sister did this morning? She chucked me out. She said, 'Mr. Dunworthy's been very ill. I don't want you to upset him.' As if I would."
He looked indignant, but at the same time tired, worried. Dunworthy thought of him haunting the corridors and sitting in the waiting room, waiting for news. No wonder he looked older.
"And just now Mrs. Gaddson said I was only to tell you good news because bad news would very likely make you have a relapse and die and it would be my fault."
"Mrs. Gaddson's still keeping up morale, I see," Dunworthy said. He smiled at Colin. "I don't suppose there's any chance of her coming down with the virus?"
Colin looked astonished. "The epidemic's stopped," he said. "They're lifting the quarantine next week."
The analogue had arrived, then, after all Mary's pleading. He wondered if it had come in time to help Badri, and then wondered if that was the bad news Mrs. Gaddson didn't want told. I have already been told the bad news, he thought. The fix is lost, and Kivrin is in 1348.
"Tell me some good news," he said.
"Well, nobody's fallen ill for two days," Colin said, "and the supplies finally came through, so we've something decent to eat."
"You've got some new clothes as well, I see."
Colin glanced down at the green jacket. "This is one of the Christmas presents from my mother. She sent them after — " He stopped and frowned. "She sent me some vids, and a set of face plasters as well."
Dunworthy wondered if she had waited till after the epidemic was effectively over before bothering to ship Colin's gifts, and what Mary had had to say about it.
"See," Colin said, standing up. "The jacket strips up automatically. You just touch the button, like this. You won't have to tell me to strip it up anymore."
The sister came rustling in. "Did he wake you up?" she demanded.
"I told you so," Colin muttered. "I didn't, Sister. I was so quiet you couldn't even hear me turn the pages."
"He didn't wake me up, and he's not bothering me," Dunworthy said before she could ask her next question. "He's telling me only good news."
"You shouldn't be telling Mr. Dunworthy anything. He must rest," she said and hung a bag of clear liquid on the drip. "Mr. Dunworthy is still too ill to be bothered with visitors." She hustled Colin out of the room.
"If you're so worried over visitors, why don't you stop Mrs. Gaddson reading Scripture to him?" Colin protested. "She'd make anybody ill." He stopped short at the door, glaring at the sister. "I'll be back tomorrow. Is there anything you'd like?"
"How is Badri?" Dunworthy asked and braced himself for the answer.
"Better," Colin said. "He was almost well, but he had a relapse. He's a good deal better now, though. He wants to see you."
"No," Dunworthy said, but the sister had already shut the door.
"It's not Badri's fault," Mary had said, and of course it wasn't. Disorientation was one of the Early Symptoms. He thought of himself, unable to punch in Andrews' number, of Ms. Piantini making mistake after mistake on the handbells, murmuring, "Sorry," over and over.
"Sorry," he murmured. It had not been Badri's fault. It was his. He had been so worried about the apprentice's calculations that he had infected Badri with his fears, so worried that Badri had decided to refeed the coordinates.
Colin had left his book lying on the bed. Dunworthy pulled it toward him. It seemed impossibly heavy, so heavy his arm shook with the effort of holding it open, but he propped that side against the rail and turned the pages, almost unreadable from the angle he was lying at, till he found what he was looking for.
The Black Death had hit Oxford at Christmas, shutting down the universities and causing those who were able to flee to the surrounding villages, carrying the plague with them. Those who couldn't died in the thousands, so many there were "none left to keep possession or make up a competent number to bury the dead." And the few who were left barricaded themselves inside the colleges, hiding, and looking for someone to blame.
He fell asleep with his spectacles on, but when the nurse removed them, he woke. It was William's nurse, and she smiled at him.
"Sorry," she said, putting them in the drawer. "I didn't mean to wake you."
Dunworthy squinted at her. "Colin says the epidemic's over."
"Yes," she said, looking at the screens behind him. "They found the source of the virus and got the analogue all at the same time, and only just in time. Probability was projecting an 85 per cent morbidity rate with 32 per cent mortality even with antibiotics and T-cell enhancement, and that was without adding in the supply shortages and so many of the staff being down. As it was, we had nearly 19 per cent mortality and a good number of the cases are still critical."
She picked up his wrist and looked at the screen behind his head. "Your fever's down a bit," she said. "You're very lucky, you know. The analogue didn't work on anyone already infected. Dr. Ahrens — " she said, and then stopped. He wondered what Mary had said. That he would pack it in. "You're very lucky," she said again. "Now try to sleep."
He slept, and when he woke again, Mrs. Gaddson was standing over him, poised for attack with her Bible.
"'He will bring upon thee all the diseases of Egypt,'" she said as soon as he had opened his eyes. "'Also every sickness and every plague, until thou be destroyed.'"
"'And ye shall be delivered into the hand of the enemy,'" Dunworthy murmured.
"What?" Mrs. Gaddson demanded.
"Nothing."
She had lost her place. She flipped back and forth through the pages, searching for pestilences, and began reading. "'…Because that God sent his only begotten Son into the world."
God would never have sent him if He'd known what would happen, Dunworthy thought. Herod and the slaughter of the innocents and Gethsemane.
"Read to me from Matthew," he said. "Chapter 26, verse 39."
Mrs. Gaddson stopped, looking irritated, and then leafed through the pages to Matthew. "'And he went a little farther, and fell on his face, and prayed, saying, O my Father, if it be possible, let this cup pass from me.'"
God didn't know where he was, Dunworthy thought. He had sent his only begotten Son into the world, and something had gone wrong with the fix, someone had turned off the net, so that He couldn't get to him, and they had arrested him and put a crown of thorns on his head and nailed him to a cross.
"Chapter 27," he said. "Verse 46."
She pursed her lips and turned the page. "I really do not feel these are appropriate Scriptures for — "