“Wouldn’t a total blank look even more suspicious?”
“I suppose it might, but… what other explanation can there be?” I gazed across at Sarah and saw my own incomprehension reflected in her face. There was never going to be an answer. There never could be. Rowena had known as much without the need of a diary to prove it. Her mother’s life had reached a turning point. And become her death.
CHAPTER TWENTY
As I’ve grown older, I’ve learned to analyse my own behaviour as well as other people’s. I’ve come to understand that just as every mood is temporary, so is every triumph and every disappointment. It isn’t much of a consolation, but it’s an effective antidote to despair. One day, I suppose, it’ll make even death seem an acceptable trade-off with reality.
Meanwhile, as November advanced, there were surrenders to be negotiated and escape routes plotted. On the third, I drove up to Worcester and made my promised statement to Inspector Joyce, admitting Louise Paxton could well have been actively seeking male company when I met her during the evening of 17 July 1990. On the fourth, I attended the last board meeting of Timariot & Small as an independent company, made an impassioned speech urging Simon and Jennifer to change their minds, then lost the vote by a slim-but for Adrian expensive-margin. Uncle Larry entered a plea for family unity; Adrian tried and failed to be more gracious in victory than he’d been in defeat; Simon burbled contentedly; and Jennifer twittered about completion dates. None of which prevented me minuting a formal protest at what they’d done and resigning with immediate effect.
My strategy was clear in my mind. And though I gave my fellow directors no hint of it, the future I’d mapped out for myself was in many ways preferable to leading a long struggle for commercial survival at Timariot & Small. More or less by default, I’d been granted another twelve-month extension to my congé de convenance personelle. So, until November 1994 at the earliest, I was a free and unfettered man. I was also about to become a moderately wealthy one, thanks to Bushranger Sports. And since it was wealth I’d tried hard to resist acquiring, I’d decided I might as well enjoy disposing of it.
For a variety of reasons, I didn’t walk out there and then, despite implying I meant to. It took several weeks for the sale to be finalized and I eventually agreed to stay on until a Bushranger apparatchik could be flown in from Sydney to take over my duties. I tried to reassure the staff about the new régime, but felt rather like Kerensky explaining how wonderful life was going to be under Lenin. Nobody believed me, any more than I believed myself. And they all knew I had something they didn’t. A way out.
It wasn’t just a way out of the barbarization of Timariot & Small, though. What sweetened the pill for me was knowing I could be beachcombing on some South Sea island by the time the news broke of Shaun Naylor’s innocence and Paul Bryant’s guilt. The press hadn’t got wind of the story yet and until they did an eerie calm seemed likely to prevail. Files and reports shuttled back and forth between the police and the Crown Prosecution Service, between Sarwate and the Criminal Appeal Office, between the servants of the law and its dispensers. Shaun Naylor counted the days in his cell at Albany Prison. Paul Bryant read the Bible in his house beside the water. And we all waited.
But some weren’t prepared to wait. It was the last Saturday in November when Jennifer telephoned me in considerable excitement to report an encounter with Bella during a Christmas shopping trip to Farnham. “She’s left her husband, Robin. Told me so quite bluntly over a cup of coffee. Back here for good and contemplating divorce. I didn’t know what to say. I mean, they’ve only been married a couple of years. But she doesn’t seem to have any compunction about it at all. As for sympathy, forget it. She doesn’t need any. Do you know what she said when I asked, as tactfully as I could, why it had come to this? ‘You wouldn’t understand, my dear.’ How patronizing can you get?”
I thought I understood perfectly well, of course. As I made clear when I called at The Hurdles the following morning, to find Bella reluctantly reacquainting herself with the dullness of an English Sunday. “I didn’t think you’d move as quickly as this, Bella. Aren’t you in danger of jumping the gun?”
“Not at all. Keith’s solicitor has been monitoring developments on our behalf and reckons Naylor will be released on bail before Christmas. The police have caved in, apparently, and the prosecution won’t be offering any evidence when the case comes to appeal. So, I’ve been left with no choice in the matter.”
“You could have chosen to stand by your husband.”
“You wouldn’t say that if you knew how he’s been behaving lately.”
“I imagine he’s been under a lot of strain.”
“I’ve been under a lot, as well.”
“Of course. But-”
“You wait and see, Robin,” she said with sudden intensity, stabbing out her cigarette in an ashtray littered with the broken-backed corpses of several others. “When all this comes out, you won’t think so badly of me.” But that I found hard to believe.
As family ruptures go, ours was a pretty cordial affair. There didn’t seem much point bearing grudges now everything was settled. And the wanderlust that grew in me as the final break approached drained the event, if not the experience, of much of its bitterness. Merv Gibson, my successor, turned out to be a milder and more sensitive soul than any I’d thought could thrive in Harvey McGraw’s empire. It was almost possible to persuade myself nothing much was going to change at Frenchman’s Road under the Bushranger umbrella. Almost, but not quite. The fact was that however dexterously appearances were managed, an era had ended.
At least I didn’t have to stay and watch the start of a new one, though. Timariot & Small and I came to the parting of the ways on Friday the seventeenth of December. The staff gave me a more rousing send-off than a mere three years as works director really justified. I think they were saying goodbye to their past along with mine, as their farewell gift to me-a watercolour of Broadhalfpenny Down commissioned from a competent local artist-tended to confirm.
That day also saw the appearance of the first newspaper articles heralding Naylor’s release from prison. They struck a cautious note for the most part, referring to “indications that Shaun Naylor may be set free following an appeal hearing next Wednesday” and “speculation which a police spokesman failed to deny that an as yet unidentified person has confessed to the murders for which Naylor was sentenced to life imprisonment in May 1991.” But if the press were being uncharacteristically diffident, my brother Simon wasn’t, especially after several drinks at my leaving party. “What the bloody hell’s all this about, Rob? And don’t try to tell me you don’t know, because I’m bloody certain you do.” Playing a dead bat to Simon when he was cruising towards inebriation being out of the question, I tried bafflement instead, which worked a treat. “My lips are sealed, Sime. Ask Bella, though. She might be able to enlighten you.”
By the weekend, a little more had seeped into the public domain. West Mercia Police and the Crown Prosecution Service were still being tight-lipped, but Vijay Sarwate had given an interview and said as much as he evidently felt he could. “I can confirm we will be applying for leave to appeal against Mr. Naylor’s convictions at a hearing on the twenty-second of this month and that the basis for the application is a full and voluntary confession of guilt by the real murderer of Oscar Bantock and Lady Paxton. I understand the police have satisfied themselves as to the accuracy and veracity of this confession and the prosecution will therefore not only be raising no objection to the appeal going ahead but also offering no evidence when it does so. In those circumstances, I anticipate that an application for Mr. Naylor’s release on bail pending the appeal will be favourably received. You will appreciate I am anxious to do all I can to reunite Mr. Naylor with his wife and children so they can celebrate a family Christmas together for the first time in four years.”