Kurtz nodded. "We won't know for sure until the coroner digs the slug out and they run a ballistics test, but I know that I hit the first shooter."

"So that's the motive," said Arlene. "He was mad at O'Toole for some reason."

"I read just enough of his diary—the parts in bad English—to see that he blamed her for ruining his life, something about not being able to marry his childhood sweetheart because he was treated as a felon by the 'Zionist bitch. "

"'Zionist bitch? " said Arlene. "Didn't this idiot know that O'Toole was Irish?"

Kurtz shrugged.

"Well, that ties it all up in a knot, doesn't it, Joe?"

Kurtz rubbed his cheeks and then his temples. The headache felt like someone tapping, not very gently, on the back of his head with a two-pound hammer wrapped in a thin sock.

"They weren't after you," continued Arlene. "You were just unlucky to get in the way when one of Peg O'Toole's crazy clients came after her."

"Yeah."

"There was nothing in O'Toole's file on Goba that suggests that he was hostile or angry at her—the last several meetings she had with him sound easy, even upbeat. But if he was crazy, I guess it makes sense. Maybe it even ties in to that old Lackawanna Six terrorist thing. There are some crazy people down there in Lackawanna."

"Yeah."

"Now you're free to investigate this other thing." Arlene waved her cigarette toward the map on the north wall with its twenty-two pins, seventeen red, five blue.

"Yeah."

"But you don't buy the Goba thing for a minute, do you, Joe?"

Kurtz closed his eyes. He tried to remember if he'd eaten anything since the half donut with Rigby King at Broadway Market that morning. Evidently not. "No," he said at last. "I don't buy it."

"Because you remember two shooters," said Arlene.

"Yeah. I told Rigby King about the second guy when I saw her this morning."

"If someone other than Goba was driving the car when it busted out of the parking garage, they'll probably find the bloodstains in the backseat," said Arlene.

"The car wasn't there at Goba's," said Kurtz.

"You said it was a rough neighborhood. And Goba had been dead two days. Car thieves were probably just waiting to pounce on a vehicle left unattended for two days."

"Yeah."

"You don't buy that either?"

"I don't know," said Kurtz. "But I know there was a second man in the parking garage Wednesday. And odds are that the second man was driving the car when it crashed out Goba didn't get home by himself. I don't think he could even have got into the house and up the stairs by himself."

"You said you saw bloodstains and trails everywhere. His handprint on the kitchen door."

"Yeah."

"And you said it looked like he'd rummaged through his medicine chest hunting for bandages or painkillers?" Arlene exhaled smoke and tapped at one fingernail with another.

"Yeah," said Kurtz.

"Any strange footprints in the blood or extra handprints anywhere?"

"No," said Kurtz. "Not that I could see. Whoever dragged him in the house made it look like Goba crawled in under his own power."

"A friend maybe?"

"Maybe," said Kurtz. "But why wouldn't a friend haul Goba to the hospital? He was hurt bad."

"GSW report?" said Arlene.

Kurtz knew that she was right Doctors and hospitals had to report gunshot wounds to the authorities.

"I bet there are Yemeni doctors in Lackawanna who might've kept it quiet," said Kurtz. "I know for a fact there are medics down there that'll patch you up without reporting it. For a price."

"Goba was poor."

"Yeah," said Kurtz.

"Joe," said Arlene, looking at the map with all the pins, "there's something you're not telling me about this heroin-addict killer situation. About why you agreed to work for Gonzaga and that woman, but why you don't want to do it."

"What do you mean?"

"There's something."

Kurtz shook his head. The action made him dizzy. "Arlene, you want to order from that Chinese place down the street? Get takeout?"

She stubbed out her cigarette. "Have you eaten anything today?"

"Sort of."

She made her snorting noise again. "You stay here, Joe. Catch a couple of minutes rest. I'll go down and order in person, bring something back."

Arlene patted him on the shoulder as she left. The contact made Kurtz jump.

He was half-dozing when the phone rang.

"Joe Kurtz? This is Detective Kemper. I just wanted to let you know that it looks like we've found the man who shot you and Officer O'Toole on Wednesday."

"Who is it?" asked Kurtz.

"You can read about it in the papers tomorrow," said the black cop. "But it looks like the guy was just after Officer O'Toole. If we find any connection between the shooter and you, I'll be the first to let you know."

"I bet you will," said Kurtz.

Kemper disconnected.

Kurtz took Goba's diary out of his jacket pocket and flipped through the pages. The scrawled entries were all dated, although Goba put the day first, then the month, and then the year, in the European manner. Much of it was in Arabic, but the English entries screamed out Goba's hatred of Parole Office "Zionist Bitch" O'Toole, how she was stealing Goba's future, keeping him from getting married, forcing him to return to a life of crime, discriminating against Arabs, part of the Zionist conspiracy, blah, blah.

The entries were made in a hard-tipped ballpoint pen, which was good. Kurtz flipped to the missing page. Only a ragged fringe remained. He found a pencil in his desk and began gently shading the next, empty page. The impressions from the heavily pressed ballpoint came up immediately.

Kurtz was asleep sitting at his desk when Arlene returned with the food, but she woke him gently and made him eat something. She'd brought two cold bottles of iced tea with the Chinese food.

They used chopsticks, sat at Arlene's desk, and ate in silence for a minute. Kurtz slid Goba's spiral notebook across to her. It was opened to the pencil-shaded page. "How does that read to you?" he asked.

Still holding her chopsticks, Arlene putted the notebook under her desk lamp and squinted for a minute, moving her glasses forward and back. "Letters missing," she said at last. "Lots of misspellings. But it looks like the final sentence reads— I can't… live with… something, maybe the guilt, although he spelled it without a 'u, and then, I must also die." Arlene looked at Kurtz. "Goba wrote a suicide note."

"Yeah. Convenient isn't it?"

"It doesn't make sense…" began Arlene. "Wait a minute. These numbers above the scrawl."

"Yeah."

"It's dated Thursday," said Arlene.

"Uh-huh."

"Didn't you say that there was no sign that he'd crawled into the bedroom, Joe? No blood trail there?"

"That's what I said."

"So his diary ends with the announcement that he can't live with the guilt of shooting O'Toole, and presumably you, too, and that he's going to kill himself. On the day after he bled to death."

"A little peculiar, isn't it?" said Kurtz.

"But that page was missing," said Arlene. She pushed the notebook aside and began spearing at her beef and broccoli. "Maybe you shouldn't have taken this notebook, Joe. The cops might have noticed the missing page and shaded in this last entry's imprint just the way you did."

"Maybe," said Kurtz.

"And they'd know that Goba's confession was a fake." She looked at him over the desk lamp and adjusted her glasses. "But you don't want them to know."

"Not yet," said Kurtz. "So far, it's the only advantage I have in this whole mess."

They ate the rest of the meal in silence.

When he was finished and the white cartons were wrapped in plastic and tossed away, Kurtz stood, walked to his own desk, swayed slightly, shook his head, took the.38 out of the Sheep Dip drawer, and lifted his leather jacket off the back of the chair.