And then the comment in her first breath about him being her lawyer. He remembered all too well-she used to make assumptions and jump to conclusions based on the belief that whatever it might be, people wanted to do it for her. And she'd been so desirable that usually it wasn't an issue. Doing what she wanted instead of what you wanted was a small enough price to pay because when you were with her, in her presence you felt that life was good.
"We weren't going to the game, Dismas. I said I wanted to go to the movies, remember? I just assumed…"
And here-he hadn't told her he was going to be her lawyer, although obviously she now assumed he was. Why wouldn't he be? When in fact, he'd rather consciously avoided making any kind of overture or commitment in that direction.
But Polly, chirping up, brushed away the thoughts. "Were you really my mom's boyfriend?" she asked.
Hardy downplayed it. "A long time ago in high school. We were good friends." He glanced at her to verify that this was her version of events as well and got an infinitesimal nod of acknowledgment.
Next, her husband, Will, stepped up and shook hands.
"Thanks for coming by. After this search this morning, we didn't know what to do. Obviously things are further along than we thought, but how they could think Catherine…" Shaking his head, he abruptly stopped.
Will was a step or two above conventionally handsome. Tanned and trim, he had a boyish face. His handshake was not strong, and the smile left a strange impression of distance, if not outright discomfort. "But you know more about all this than we do," he concluded.
Hardy took the opportunity to clarify things. "I really don't know too much beyond what I've read in the papers. After you catch me up, we'll have to see how bad things are. You may not need a lawyer at all."
But Catherine didn't let him off. "No, I need a lawyer, Dismas. I'm sure of that. After this morning… the search was just so, so weird, in a way. This Inspector Cuneo, he must be thinking…"
Will shook his head, his voice with an edge to it. "Let's not go there yet. We don't know what he's thinking. He's not going to find anything on Catherine's clothes, but if he does…"
Catherine turned on him. "There's nothing to find, Will. He's harassing me, pure and simple."
Hardy, drawn in, had to ask. "Who is? Cuneo?"
She nodded. "Who else? But here you are standing in the open door. Please come in, Dismas. I'm not thinking. This has got us all so upset."
"I don't blame you. It's upsetting." He looked at the assembled children. "How are you guys doing? Holding up?"
Saul said, "My mom didn't kill Grandpa." "No," Hardy replied, "I'm sure she didn't." "It's bullshit!"
"Saul!" But Catherine's rebuke had no teeth. "Mr. Hardy's here because he knows I couldn't have done anything like that. That's why I called him. And it's why we need to talk."
Will spoke up. "Mom's right, kids. It's adult time. We'll be right out front here if you need us."
Saul didn't particularly like it, but the girls went without hesitation and, in a moment, so did he. Hardy took the moment to look around the room, then at Catherine. "At least they didn't tear the place up down here, did they?" he said to her.
"No, it was all upstairs," Will said.
Catherine's tone brooked no objection. "I think he asked me, Will, if you don't mind."
"No," Hardy said, "that's all right."
A hard look passed between husband and wife. "She's right," Will said. "It's her problem, really. You two work it out." And with that he was gone.
Hardy and Catherine remained in the living room, sitting facing one another at the far end by the fireplace. Their eyes met and held for an instant. Catherine drew a breath, made an attempt at a smile, another one. "I don't know where to begin," she said at last, "except to tell you that…"
"Wait," Hardy said, "Catherine, please. Just one second." Now that he had her alone, he was going to set the record straight. "I came over here to talk to you because you sounded like you were in trouble and you needed some emergency legal advice. I'm prepared to give that to you, free and for nothing, because I do feel like I know who you are, and of course there's our history."
She seemed to be suppressing some amusement. "You do sound like a lawyer."
"That's because I am a lawyer, Catherine. And I don't know if there's even a case here, much less if I'm prepared to take it on. If they discover some evidence and you become a legitimate suspect…"
She shook her head, stopping him. "It's not about the evidence, Dismas. It's about Inspector Cuneo."
"How's that?"
"I made him mad and now he's out to show me I wasn't going to get away with it." "With what?"
An hour later, Hardy had the whole story from Catherine's point of view, as well as she could piece it together. She believed that her accusation of Cuneo's sexual advances was at the base of everything that had happened up to now, and took the position that the search wasn't so much about evidence as an example of pure police hassle. She had no idea why her clothes might be important. Readily admitting her concerns about the family's future finances, especially if Paul and Missy were to marry, she also told him about her conversations with Glitsky. Finally, they'd exhausted everything she'd brought up and decided to take a break.
Without any conscious decision, Hardy had spent the hour asking questions, giving answers and generally acting as though he was already, de facto, taking the case.
In the kitchen, she brewed up a pot of decaf and they crossed over to the table in the breakfast nook. Hardy slid in on the bench and sipped at his coffee as she lowered herself onto one of the chairs. "This is just so strange," she said quietly. "How many times do you think we sat like this either at your place or mine and drank coffee and did homework together while it was dark outside?"
"A lot. But I'm not sure I remember much about the homework."
"No. We always did homework before." Hardy felt the "before" hanging in the air between them. Then she said, "That was the rule. Don't you remember? We were such serious students."
"We were?"
"Listen to you. Mister never got a 'B'?"
Hardy shrugged. "I got some 'B's. Especially in college. But grades weren't what I put my energy into, anyway."
"I know. I remember where you put your energy."
Hardy's mouth twitched and his eyes flicked across at her, then away. "They were good times." He brought his cup to his mouth and sipped. "Do you realize that my daughter's as old now as you were then? Is that possible?"
"What's her name?"
"Rebecca."
"I love that name. Does she have a boyfriend?" "Going on two years. Darren. Nice kid." "Are they serious?"
"Probably. They'd say they were, anyway, first true love and all that."
"You sound cynical."
"I'm not. They just don't really have a clue yet."
"Like we did?"
"No. We didn't either."
"I thought we did." She scratched at the table with a fingernail. "I thought we had it all." "Maybe you did. I didn't."
"I think you did, even then. You were always so good with who you were, so together."
He snorted. "Together. There's a word you don't hear a lot of anymore. If I was so together, how did I fall so completely apart?"
"How about your parents being in a plane crash? You think that could have been a life-changing event?"
"I guess it was."
"You guess?"
Hardy shrugged. "Well," he said quietly, "whatever it was. In any case, I'm sorry. I was a shit to you."
"You weren't really. You just dumped me, that's all."
But it was the only way Hardy had been able to do it. He had had the excuse of his parents' death so that he could keep at bay his own guilt over wanting to end it with Catherine. He was sorting out his life and had no time for a relationship, especially such a demanding one as theirs. The truth was that he had simply grown tired of the dramatics, the narcissism, the omissions. ("I never said I wouldn't see anybody else when you went to college.") But he also knew that if he allowed himself to get back into her presence, the physical connect might make him weaken. So without a word he'd just dropped out of her life. In retrospect he knew that she was what he'd had to abandon to get to where he'd come now, to where he needed to go.