The next days had been a blur of holding cells and interview rooms. An assistant state’s attorney, a small man in a trim brown suit, pacing back and forth. Detectives questioning him again and again. Richard’s lawyer talking to cops in the hallway, all of them casting furtive looks his way.

Danny kept it simple. Told the cops he could help close another case. Their eyes had lit up when he mentioned it was the murder of a civilian outside a diner on Ashland. He told them he knew where the body was, along with the physical evidence that made it open and shut. On every other subject he kept his mouth shut and let the cops and the bureaucrats fight it out.

He’d given himself five-to-two that he’d end up doing time, maybe serious time. But he didn’t count on the wild cards.

The first was Sean Nolan. Danny still didn’t know exactly what story Sean had told. Whether he’d acknowledged Danny had saved his life, or admitted that Danny had come to him earlier for help. All he knew was what Detective Matthews told him: From a hospital bed, Sean had fought for him. Hard.

The second was Richard O’Donnell. He’d refused to testify against Danny. Refused to identify him as having been part of the kidnapping. Sent his lawyer down to make sure the message was clear.

He’d also fired Danny cold, but that didn’t worry him much.

In the end, the assistant state’s attorney was left with a choice. Prosecute Danny on a weak case and maybe lose. Add to that an unclosed murder file on Pinianski. Two black marks that wouldn’t look good on his record, or do much to help his boss’s reelection bid.

Or they could make a deal.

By the end of the week, Danny was a free man. Detective Matthews told him he was the luckiest bastard on earth, and then drove him home.

“I told them what happened,” Danny said. “But you Judased yourself.”

Evan glowered. “Yeah, I figured you would. The smart play, right?”

“Just the truth.”

“So Danny Carter wins again.” He shook his head. “That what you came to say?”

“No.” Danny stood up and walked to the window. In the snow, the parking deck was just a hazy shape, like a dream of ghosts, or a memory of his past. “I guess I came to say I’m sorry.” He sighed.

“I’m sorry for the way things worked out for you. For us. I think back to those days, the way we ran crazy, like nothing had consequences, and I wish I could turn back the clock.” For the rest of his life, he’d carry a load, a guilt that wouldn’t fade. You didn’t have to do terrible things to have guilt. Not preventing terrible things from happening would work, too. And sometimes, guilt and pain were just waiting for you, the obvious destination at the end of a road you never meant to choose, but hadn’t fought hard enough to leave.

A psychiatrist would tell him it wasn’t his fault, and he’d be right. But he’d be wrong, too.

“You got a funny way of showing that,” Evan said, “sending me back to prison.”

Danny shook his head. “You don’t get it, man. I’m sorry for not changing things before it was too late. I feel sorry for the boy from the neighborhood, the kid who used to be my best friend. But the man you became?” He turned to face Evan in the bed. “Prison is where you belong.”

Evan stared at him, his glare heavy with the weight of years. When he spoke, his voice was flat. “Get the fuck out.”

That old tension filled the air. Once, it would have put Danny on his guard, had him looking for exits. Now, it only made him sad. He nodded. Picked up the chair and moved it back to the wall. Took one last look at his old friend and recent enemy, then walked away.

“You should have killed me.” There was no threat in Evan’s voice, only a muted sound that might have been pain. “I wish you had.”

Danny paused, his hand on the doorknob. “I know.” He opened his mouth, closed it. “So do I.” Then he stepped out of the room.

Nolan was waiting in the lobby. A gray canvas sling held his right arm in place. His vest had stopped two of the bullets, but the third had shattered his collarbone. “Figured I’d catch you here. You get what you wanted?”

“I’m not even sure what that was.”

Nolan looked at him, nodded. “Just good-bye, maybe.”

“Maybe.” He shrugged. “How’s the arm?”

“Sore as shit. Keeps me awake. Catholic or not, I don’t heal soon, Mary-Louise is going to divorce me for a good night’s sleep.”

Danny laughed, feeling warm toward the guy, but also nervous. A silence fell, neither sure what to say. They had the shared awkwardness of men who had loaned each other money but lost track of the final tally. Was there a debt? Who owed?

Some accounts were too complicated for mathematics. Danny spoke first. “Thanks.” He let the word hang a moment, his eyes on Sean’s, then gestured toward the elevators. “For putting me on the list, I mean.”

“Sure.”

Another moment passed, Danny tracking the progress of an old couple, had to be in their eighties, the woman smiling coquettishly as she leaned on the man in a slow shuffle step. Something about it moved him. “Listen, I should get going.” He zipped his jacket. “Hope the arm feels better.”

Nolan nodded, stepped aside.

Through the front glass of the hospital he could see the Explorer parked, a splash of color in a swirl of white. Squinting against the brightness, he moved toward the door.

“Danny.”

Nolan stood in cop pose, his chest cocked and expression stern. If his hand wasn’t in a sling, Danny had the distinct impression it would be on his gun. Then the detective smiled. “Be good.”

Danny snorted. Raised two fingers and tossed a salute. Then he turned and walked out.

After the stifling hospital corridors, cold air was sweet relief. He hiked to the car, opened the door to find Karen singing along with an eighties song on the radio. She grinned at him. “You get your closure?”

“Almost. Just one more thing to do.”

Against the dark granite, the collected snow seemed bright as a dream of the world. Danny paused in front of it, his breath tight in his chest, and Karen squeezed his hand.

“I’m okay,” he said.

She gave him a smile laced with sadness, then stepped forward to brush off the headstone.

A simple cross. Gray. Danny had never had to pick a headstone before. As he’d browsed the catalog, the undertaker nodding solemnly beside him, he’d found himself baffled. How did you sum up a life? What words tied all the ragged strands in a knot?

In the end, he’d gone with just “Patrick Connelly” and “Friend.”

Karen finished dusting the marker and stepped back, her boots crunching the frozen grass. She took off one glove and wormed a warm hand into his, and together they stood, looking at the cross and counting the costs. The snow muffled the world.

Finally, he reached in his jacket pocket and took out the necklace. Most of the stuff in Patrick’s place they’d given to charity, the rest consigned to the trash bin. He’d kept a handful of photographs, his friend’s old motorcycle jacket, and this. A black cord bearing a small silver charm of a hunched man with a staff, a glowing baby on his back. The words PROTECT US lettered on the bottom.

“What is it?” Karen leaned closer.

“A Saint Christopher’s medallion,” he said. He stepped forward and draped it over the cross. The metal clinked quietly against the stone. “Patron saint of travelers.”

She smiled wanly. “He’d like that.”

He nodded.

A few moments passed, and then she shivered. “I’m getting cold. Mind if I wait in the truck?”

“Not at all.” He smiled, his eyes flicking to her belly. She wasn’t showing yet, but they’d already decided on names. Circumstances made it simple. Patrick for a boy, of course; for a girl, Debbie. Like Debbie Harry. “Want me to come?”

She shook her head, moving away. “Take your time.”