CHAPTER 16

The next day, it fully hit me how much things had changed since the Jesse-and-Ralf rumors first started. For some people, I remained a nonstop source of whispers and laughter. From Lisa's converts, I received friendliness and occasional defense. Overall, I realized, our classmates actually gave me very little of their attention anymore. This became especially true when something new distracted everyone. Lisa and Aaron.

Apparently, Mia had found about the party and had blown up when she learned that Aaron had been there without her. She'd bitched at him and told him that if he wanted to be with her, he couldn't run around and hang out with Lisa. So Aaron had decided he didn't want to be with her. He'd broken up with her that morning…and moved on.

Now he and Lisa were all over each other. They stood around in the hall and at lunch, arms wrapped around one another, laughing and talking. Lisa's bond feelings showed only mild interest, despite her gazing at him as though he was the most fascinating thing on the planet. Most of this was for show, unbeknownst to him. He looked as though he could have built a shrine at her feet at any moment.

And me?I felt ill.

My feelings were nothing, however, compared to Mia's. At lunch, she sat on the far side of the room from us, eyes fixed pointedly ahead, ignoring the consolations of the friends near her. She had blotchy pink patches on her pale, round cheeks, and her eyes were red-rimmed. She said nothing mean when I walked past. No smug jokes. No mocking glares. Lisa had destroyed her, just as Mia had vowed to do us.

The only person more miserable than Mia was Christian.Unlike her, he had no qualms about studying the happy couple while wearing an open look of hatred on his face. As usual, no one except me even noticed.

After watching Lisa and Aaron make out for the tenth time, I left lunch early and went to see Ms.

Carmack, the teacher who taught elemental basics. I'dbeen wanting to ask her something for a while.

"Rose, right? "She seemed surprised to see me but not angry or annoyed like half the other teachers did lately.

"Yeah.I have a question about, um, magic."

She raised an eyebrow. Novices didn't take magic classes. "Sure. What do you want to know?"

"I was listening to the priest talk about St. Vladimir the other day…Do you know what element he specialized in?Vladimir, I mean. Not the priest."

She frowned. "Odd. As famous as he is around here, I'm surprised it never comes up. I'm no expert, but in all the stories I've heard, he never did anything that I'd say connects to any one of the elements. Either that or no one ever recorded it."

"What about his healings? " I pushed further. "Is there an element that lets you perform those?"

"No, not that I know of. "Her lips quirked into a small smile. "People of faith would say he healed through the power of God, not any sort of elemental magic. After all, one thing the stories are certain about is that he was 'full of spirit. "

"Is it possible he didn't specialize?"

Her smile faded. "Rose, is this really about St. Vladimir? Or is it about Lisa?"

"Not exactly… " I stammered.

"I know it's hard on her-especially in front of all her classmates-but she has to be patient, " she explained gently. "It will happen. It always happens."

"But sometimes it doesn't."

"Rarely.But I don't think she'll be one of those. She's got a higher-than-average aptitude in all four, even if she hasn't hit specialized levels. One of them will shoot up any day now."

That gave me an idea. "Is it possible to specialize in more than one element?"

She laughed and shook her head. "No.Too much power. No one could handle all that magic, not without losing her mind."

Oh.Great.

"Okay. Thanks. " I started to leave,then thought of something else. "Hey, do you remember Ms. Karp? What did she specialize in?"

Ms. Carmack got that uncomfortable look other teachers did whenever anyone mentioned Ms. Karp.

"Actually-"

"What?"

"I almost forgot. I think she really was one of the rare ones who never specialized. She just always kept a very low control over all four.»

I spent the rest of my afternoon classes thinking about Ms. Carmack's words, trying to work them into my unified Lisa-Karp-Vladimir theory. I also watched Lisa. So many people wanted to talk to her now that she barely noticed my silence. Every so often, though, I'd see her glance at me andsmile, a tired look in her eyes. Laughing and gossiping all day with people she only sort of liked was taking its toll on her.

"The mission's accomplished, " I told her after school. "We can stop Project Brainwash."

We sat on benches in the courtyard, and she swung her legs back and forth. "What do you mean?"

"You've done it. You stopped people from making my life horrible. You destroyed Mia. You stole Aaron. Play with him for another couple weeks,then drop him and the other royals. You'll be happier."

"You don't think I'm happy now?"

"I know you aren't. Some of the parties are fun, but you hate pretending to be friends with people you don't like-and you don't like most of them. I know how much Xander pissed you off the other night."

"He's a jerk, but I can deal with that. If I stop hanging out with them, everything'll go back to the way it was. Mia will just start up again. This way, she can't bother us."

"It's not worth it if everything else is bothering you."

"Nothing's bothering me. " She sounded a little defensive.

"Yeah? "I asked meanly. "Because you're so in love with Aaron?Because you can't wait to have sex with him again?"

She glared at me. "Have I mentioned you can be a huge bitch sometimes?"

I ignored that. "I'm just saying you've got enough shit to worry about without all this. You're burning yourself out with all the compulsion you're using."

«Rose!» She glanced anxiously around. "Be quiet!"

"But it's true. Using it all the time is going to screw with your head.For real."

"Don't you think you're getting carried away?"

"What about Ms. Karp?"

Lisa's expression went very still. "What about her?"

"You.You're just like her."

"No, I'm not! " Outrage flashed in those green eyes.

"She healed too."

Hearing me talk about this shocked her. This topic had weighed us down for so long, but we'd almost never spoken about it.

"That doesn't mean anything."

"You don't think it does? Do you know anyone else who can do that? Or can use compulsion on dhampirsand Moroi?"

"She never used compulsion like that, " she argued.

"She did. She tried to use it on me the night she left. It started to work, but then they took her away before she finished. " Or had they? After all, it was only a month later that Lisa and I had run away from the Academy. I'd always thought that was my own idea, but maybe Ms. Karp's suggestion had been the true force behind it.

Lisa crossed her arms. Her face looked defiant, but her emotions felt uneasy. "Fine. So what? So she's a freak like me. That doesn't mean anything. She went crazy because…well, that was just the way she was. That's got nothing to do with anything else."

"But it's not just her, " I said slowly. "There's someone else like you guys, too. Someone I found. " I hesitated. "You know St. Vladimir…."

And that's when I finally let it all out. I told her everything. I told her about how she, Ms. Karp, and St. Vladimir could all heal and use super-compulsion. Although it made her squirm, I told her how they too grew easily upset and had tried to hurtthemselves.

"He tried to kill himself, " I said, not meeting her eyes. "And I used to notice marks on Ms. Karp's skin-like she'd claw at her own face. She tried to hide it with her hair, but I could see the old scratches and tell when she made new ones."