Like the man in my dream.

“Like you.” Fritz looked me over approvingly. “You would dance well with the bull, nicht?”

The big brown bull was in full charge, his head lowered. The three athletes were naked except for queer little calf-length boots and close-fitting loincloths, fastened at the waist by the broad, stiff belts that seemed to have been fashionable in Crete. One of them was standing behind the bull with her arms raised, as if she were about to catch the man who was doing a handstand on the bull’s back. His legs were flung back, and it was clear that he was about to somersault over the tail and land on his feet, behind the bull. The third of the three vaulters was just starting her leap. She had hold of the bull’s horns, and she was right in between them, you could see the points on both sides of her body. The technique couldn’t have been more clearly expressed in a games manual. The athlete grabbed the bull’s horns when he charged, and when he tossed his head back she vaulted up over his head, landed on his back, and jumped to the ground. That is, she did it unless she got caught on the horns.

Yes, I said “she.” Two of the athletes were girls. No mistake; not only were they shaped like girls, but they were painted a pale yellowish white, in contrast to the third athlete, who was reddish brown. Hans explained that coloring the men darker than the women was a convention in Minoan art. The Egyptians did the same thing, perhaps because the women usually stayed inside and protected their complexions from the hot Mediterranean sun.

I wondered if I could get a postcard of the scene. If so, I would send it to Mr. Barnes, the gym teacher who had refused to let me play baseball because girls were too fragile for such a violent sport.

This was one sport I wouldn’t have tried out for. Oh, it could be done; as I had said to Hans, it didn’t require any more coordination than a lot of the tricks gymnasts learn. Only here, if you slipped, you didn’t get up, rubbing a sore fanny, and try again. But the danger wouldn’t deter the bull vaulters, any more than it stops bullfighters and mountain climbers and Evel Knievel. Maybe the vaulters weren’t prisoners. Maybe they were kids who saw themselves as superstars, strutting down the stone-paved streets with everybody pointing and whispering and asking them for their autographs. And, as Hans said, there might have been a religious meaning to the game. That would strengthen an athlete’s nerve too. The bull was the sacred animal of Poseidon, the sea god, and the games might have been rituals in his honor. Remember the Minotaur, half man, half bull…

You see, I was thinking quite reasonably and coherently. All the while, however, another process was going on inside me. What had happened in the museum was only the overture before the main event, which began as soon as I set my sandaled foot on the soil of the city. The feeling was so strong that it overpowered my sense of congruity. It no longer seemed strange that I should find so many things familiar. It was as if I were two people in the same body. The real me- Sandy -was in control. She walked around and talked to Hans and admired the sights. But down underneath, in the dark places of my mind, someone else was waking up from a long, long sleep. That someone didn’t have a name. I didn’t dare give her one. But she knew this place, as she had known the gaming board and the clewbox.

“We” stood in the big central courtyard, and one of us remembered the games.

It was midafternoon by then, and hot. The sun beat down on the dusty gray surface, where a few hardy weeds survived the trampling of tourists’ feet. Along the four sides of the court were the walls and columns of the enclosing palace. There were quite a few sightseers. The ones who had come on the big gaudy tour buses were mostly over sixty and overweight. They had gray hair or white hair or no hair, except for a few of the women, whose bright-gold heads had come off a shelf in some shop. They huddled together like sheep, listening to the guide’s lecture. The younger tourists seemed to be students, for the most part. Some of them, with their long hair and short shorts, their legs and torsos bared, might have stepped out of the old frescoes-slim-waisted, brown young men.

“I” saw the tourists and the sunbaked earthen flooring. The other person in my mind saw great stone paving blocks, ominously stained; rows of spectators watching in breathless silence; the great brown bulk of the bull, and the man who stood waiting for its charge, hands raised and ready for the horns. His body was lean and brown, and his face was the face of the man in my dream.

Chapter 3

WHEN I WOKE UP THE NEXT MORNING I DIDN’T KNOW where I was. The events of the previous day were hazy and dreamlike, as if they had happened to some character in a book I had been reading. The hallucination in the great court, when I had seemed to see a color replay of the bull games, was my last coherent memory. The rest of the day was a series of isolated fragments.

Hans and I had explored the palace, met a couple of students from Denmark, and had supper with them. I remembered their faces; the names were gone. Afterward I must have found the house where I had rented a room… Yes, one ofthe memory fragments concerned the house, and the smiling, motherly Greek lady who owned it. She had shown me the room and brought me water so I could wash. After that-blank.

Calling the experience a hallucination reduced it to terms I could accept. Mentally I added another acceptable word. Sunstroke. Too much sun, unfamiliar food, illness-hallucinations. Reassured, I looked around the room.

The window was wide open. Sunlight made the whitewashed walls so bright they hurt my eyes, and there were so many flies they sounded like a vacuum cleaner. I had a couple of little red bites I hadn’t had when I arrived in Crete, but otherwise I felt fine.

I went downtown and had breakfast. The coffee was the kind you have to strain through your teeth. We call it Turkish coffee at home, but I had been cautioned against using that term. The long Turkish occupation of Greece still rankles; the beverage is Greek coffee, if you please. Anyhow, the bread was good and the jam was a little bit like glue, and after I got my tongue unstuck, thanks to the water that is served with the smallest order in Greece, I went down to the dock and found that I could hitch a ride on a local boat that was going to Santorini that afternoon. On the way back to my boardinghouse I met Hans. He suggested I stick around for a few days and go on to Rhodes with him. I said “No, thanks.” He kissed me good-bye; and then he decided he would go with me, wherever I was going; and I had some trouble getting rid of him.

My hostess and I parted on excellent terms. I practiced my Greek on her. I already knew how to say “Thank you” and “Please” and “Where is the toilet/café/hotel/boat/dog of the innkeeper?” Then I shouldered my stuff and started out for the dock. I only had one suitcase, in addition to my backpack, but it was a big suitcase. It held my diving gear. Frederick had assured me I could rent gear on Thera, but I don’t like using secondhand stuff. I only hoped Frederick was right about getting tanks and air for them.

I had to hang around the dock for a couple of hours before the captain of the boat got back from his afternoon nap. Jim would have had fits at the sight of the boat. It was a filthy tub that looked as if it would founder in a slight breeze. The deck still showed the traces of its last dozen cargoes-animal droppings, oil, fish scales, and so on. I scraped out a spot and sat down. It’s about a hundred and twenty kilometers from Crete to Thera, and from the looks of the scow I figured she’d be lucky to make twenty kilometers an hour. I overestimated the speed. It was late the next morning before we got in.