And he had slowly become aware that one of her long legs was pressing against his, that she was leaning closer to him, that she was studying his mouth as he talked; the combination of all these things, together with the three beers and the heady cloud of her perfume, was making him feel physically dizzy… surely, surely she couldn’t fancy him…?
“Oh, it was OK. I think,” she said now. “I’m glad it’s over. But they were very nice. You?”
“Oh, I think it was OK. Wonder if we had the same ones? I had Sergeant Freeman and Constable Rowe, his sidekick.”
“Yes, the same.”
God, he was so… so gorgeous. She would never have believed she would find herself fancying someone like him: so public-school, so straight-down-the-line, so old-style polite. He actually came round to push in her chair, for God’s sake, stood up when she went to the toilet and again when she came back.
She felt like… well, she felt like someone completely different. The sort of person who’d grown up used to that sort of thing herself. It was like being stroked, or eating chocolates, or lying in the sun; it was soothing, warming, totally pleasing.
And he was so incredibly good-looking. He could have been a model, if he’d wanted. OK, his haircut was a bit dated, but it suited him. It was great hair. That wonderful rich, conker brown and then sort of blond streaks.
He had no idea how attractive he was. He was a bit like a child, completely unself-conscious; she looked at him now, sitting in the bar, his long legs stretched out in front of him, his shirtsleeves pushed up to the elbows, showing his brown arms-so brown, they were, covered in thick blond hair-grinning at her, talking about the farm, about how much he loved it in spite of everything, loved being out-of-doors all the time, about the satisfaction of it, of harvesting the wheat, of rearing healthy animals.
“My brother’s an accountant, one of those city types. Now, that’s an awful existence, pushing money around, helping rich people stay as rich as they can. It’s a mean, selfish little life.”
She was surprised by how articulate he was; somehow she’d always imagined farmers would be the strong, silent type. When he moved on to the supermarkets and how they screwed the farmers into the ground, ruined the small ones, she began to care about them too, enjoying listening to his deep, rich voice-and yes, it was a bit posh, and she didn’t usually like posh, but it was his. So she liked it.
“Sorry, Abi; you mustn’t let me bore you. You probably want to talk about our respective interviews with the police.”
“You’re not boring me,” she said, “and I don’t want to. Plenty of time for that.”
“Fine. Look, I’ve had far too much to drink. Can we find somewhere to eat and let me buy you dinner? I need to consume about five thousand calories even to start to mop it all up. We could talk about the interviews then. Or… maybe you’ve got other plans?”
Abi said no-no, she hadn’t, and dinner would be great.
He suggested Browns; he would know Browns, she thought; it was made for people like him. She didn’t often go there; it was… well, full of people like him. Which tonight seemed pretty good.
“So, come on,” he said when they had ordered-a large steak for him, a crab salad for her. “What about you? Tell me about your job, tell me about your family, tell me what you like doing.”
She had an almost irresistible urge to tell him what she really liked doing and how much she’d like to do it with him, but suppressed it and gave him as sanitised a version as she could of her life, her friends, her job. She cut out the lingerie modelling, the drugs, and-obviously-most of her boyfriends. Especially the last one.
“So… no one serious at the moment?”
“No.”
“I can’t think why not.”
He looked so genuinely baffled she wanted to kiss him. She did kiss him. Only on the cheek, but…
“What was that for?” he said, grinning at her.
“For wondering why I hadn’t got a serious boyfriend. I wish…”
“But why not? I really can’t imagine.”
“Because they’re mostly rubbish, that’s why. The men I meet. Spoilt. Up on themselves. Waste of space.”
“Well, that’s pretty damning,” he said, laughing. “You must have met a particularly bad lot. I feel I should make an apology for my sex. No, seriously. You’ve obviously been very hurt by… by someone.”
“Yes, lots,” she said, and then the person who had hurt her the most and the most recently swam before her eyes, and the magic was gone, albeit briefly, and she felt suddenly and dreadfully sad.
“Well, I’m sorry,” he said. He was clearly much too much of a gentleman to ask her about it; and she could hardly tell him. So they sat in silence for a moment or two, and then he said, “Look, I should be getting back quite soon and we’ve still not talked about our interviews. So… how was yours? Really? Was it as awful as you expected?”
“No. No, it was fine. They were very nice. Much less scary than I expected. Yours?”
“Also very nice. Very thorough. They went into absolutely everything. Who I talked to, all that sort of thing. They even asked about you.”
“Me! What did they ask about me, for heaven’s sake?”
“Oh, well, I told them how great you were, helping the little boys. How you went to the hospital with one of them. And then they asked me if I knew anything about your relationship with the doctor bloke.”
“My relationship with… But I don’t… That is, why should they ask you that?”
“No idea. Well, first they asked what happened to your car, why it wasn’t still on the motorway, and I said you’d been with the doctor in his. And then they asked me if I knew anything about your relationship with him. I said absolutely nothing, except that it was a professional one, that you’d been at a conference together.”
“Oh. Right.”
“Oh, and I said he seemed pretty tense, was shouting at you at one point.”
“Well, he was. Quite true.”
Did it matter, their knowing that? Not really. And William had said all the right things: that her relationship with Jonathan was only professional. But… why were they interested? It was a bit worrying.
“Anyway, that was about it, really. Ah, here’s the bill. No, no, I insist”-as she fumbled for her cards-“don’t be silly. Look, can I drop you anywhere?”
God, he was such a fucking gentleman; most men, after buying you three cocktails and dinner, would expect to be well into your knickers.
“No, it’s OK; I’ll get a cab.”
“Oh, now, that’s ridiculous. I’ll just drive you home.”
Maybe he did want to. It seemed crazy not to find out.
They went out to the street, and as they walked to his car, she put her arm through his, and he looked down at her and smiled in that… God, that sort of… sort of charming way, and then he said, “Come in, hop in.”
Abi hopped.
It was a ten-minute drive; as they parked outside the block on her bleak, narrow street, she said, hoping she sounded like the nice girl he seemed to imagine she was, “Would you like to come in for a coffee?”
“I’d love to, but I really mustn’t. My ghastly brother’s coming down tomorrow-”
“What, the accountant?”
“That’s the one. God, I must be boring. Banging on about my family.”
“William,” said Abi, reaching up to kiss his cheek, “you couldn’t ever be boring. I could listen to you all”-she had been going to say “all night” but amended it hastily to-“all day. Even talking about your cows. Your girls, as you call them.”
He did; she had found that unbelievably sweet.
“Really?” She was sure if it had been light, she would have seen him blushing. He did blush; became discomfited quite easily. He wasn’t exactly shy, but he was quite… bashful. The other thing he did was giggle. He had a wonderful laugh, a booming, roaring laugh, but he also, when suddenly amused, giggled uncontrollably and infectiously.