'A good member of the proletariat at last,' said Andrew, smiling benevolently from the windows of his gravy train at his dispossessed father.

'And you got married, I hear. I was beginning to think you must be a queer.'

'Who knows these days? But never mind all that, we thought you might like to come and live in the bottom flat?'

'It's my house anyway, so don't make a favour out of it.'

But there were two good rooms, and everything paid for, and he was pleased.

Colin went down to help settle him in and said that he mustn't expect Frances to wait on him.

'It's news to me that she ever did. She was always a lousy housekeeper.'

But Johnny was far from dependent on his family for company. His visitors brought him gifts and flowers as if to a shrine. Johnny was in the process of becoming a holy man, the follower of a senior Indian holy man, and was now often heard to remark, 'Yes, I was a bit of a Red once.' He would sit cross-legged on his pillows on his bed, and his old gesture, palms extended outwards as if offering himself to an audience, fitted in nicely with this new persona. He had disciples, and taught meditation and the Fourfold Sacred Way. In return they kept his rooms clean for him and cooked dishes in which lentils played a leading role.

But this was his new self, perhaps one could describe it as a role, in a play where Sisters and Brothers and Holy Mothers replaced the comrades. His older self did sometimes resurface, when other visitors, old comrades, came around to reminisce as ifthe great failure of the Soviet Union had never happened, as if that Empire was still marching on. Old men, old women, whose lives had been illumined by the great dream, sat about drinking wine in an atmosphere not unlike that ofthose far-offcombative evenings, except for one thing: they did not smoke now, whereas once it would have been hard to see across a room for the smoke that had been through their lungs.

Late, before the guests left, Johnny would lower his voice and lift his glass, and propose a toast, 'To Him.'

And with tender admiration they drank to possibly the cruellest murderer who has ever lived.

They say that for decades after Napoleon's death old soldiers met in taverns and bars and, secretly, in each other's hovels, raised their glasses to The Other: they were the few survivors of the Grand Armée (whose heroic feats had achieved precisely nothing, except the destruction of a generation), crippled men, whose health had gone and who had survived unspeakable sufferings. But so what, it is always The Dream that counts.

Johnny had another visitor, Celia, who would descend on the hand of Marusha or Bertha or Chantal and run to Johnny. 'Poor little Johnny. '

‘But that's your grandfather! You can't call him that. '

The faery child took no notice, stroked the old chastened head, kissed it, and sang her little song, ' That's my little grandfather, that's my poor little Johnny. '

The conjunction of Colin and Sophie had produced a rare being: everyone felt it. The big lads, William and Clever and Zebedee, played with her delicately, almost humbly, as if this was a privilege, a favour she was doing them.

Or they all sat around the table, Rupert and Frances, Colin and William, Clever and Zebedee, and quite often Sophie too, at the evening meal that might go on and on, and the child came running in, evading bedtime. She wanted to be near them, but not to be picked up, held, or sat on a knee. She was deep inside her game, or play, talking softly to herself confidentially, in voices they learned to recognise. ' Celia's here, yes she is, this is Celia, and there is my Frances and there is my Clever...’ The tiny child, in her scrap of a coloured dress, chattering there, but to herself, perhaps using a bit of cloth, or a flower, or a toy to stand in for some person or character or imagined playmate – she was so perfectly beautiful that she silenced them, they sat watching, charmed, awed...’And there's my William...'she reached out to touch him, to be sure of him, but she was not looking at him, perhaps at the flower or toy, 'and my Zebedee...' Colin got up, the big clumsy man, so coarse and heavy beside her, and stood looking down. 'And there – my Colin, yes, it's my daddy...' Colin, tears running, bent down to her in something like an obeisance ofhis whole being, holding out his hands with a groan, 'Oh Frances, oh Sophie, did you ever see anything so...’

But the little girl did not want to be gathered in and held, she spun around on herself, singing for herself and to herself, 'Yes, my Colin, yes, my Sophie, yes, and there's my poor little Johnny...’

About the Author

Doris Lessing was born of British parents in Persia in 1919 and moved with her family to Southern Rhodesia when she was five years old. She went to England in 1949 and has lived there ever since. She is the author of more than thirty books-novels, stories, reportage, poems, and plays. Doris Lessing lives in London.

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