Do you think that if you live in Packard’s house the way it was in the thirties, you’ll trick yourself into feeling remote from the present, less traumatized by what Ilkovic did to your grandparents and Daniel and Greg? Your problems won’t go away. They’ll be the same in the past as the present. But the past will raise different problems, intruding on the present.

9

“HAVE YOU ANY IDEA HOW I CAN FIND INFORMATION ABOUT A woman who lived in Los Angeles in the thirties?” Coltrane asked.

Nolan wasn’t prepared for a change in topic.

“She owned the house I’m buying,” Coltrane explained. “I’m trying to find out some history about the property.”

“Haven’t you been listening to me?” Nolan asked. “You’re barely going to scrape through this and stay out of prison. If I were you, I’d keep my mind on what to tell the grand jury.”

“If I keep thinking about Ilkovic, I’ll go crazy.”

“Well, you’re not going to get much of a break from talking about him. The state police want you to drive back up there. They want another heart-to-heart. At six-thirty.” Nolan glanced at his watch. “Which gives you ninety minutes.”

“They’re working late.”

“You’re a popular guy.”

Coltrane rubbed his raw eyes and stood.

“The library has city directories,” Nolan said.

“What?”

“For the thirties. She owned the house how long?”

“From ’33 until ’35.”

“Follow her through the directories. Where did she move after she left the house you’re buying? See if she’s in the ’36 listing. Same thing with the phone book. Eventually she’ll disappear from the listings – either because she moved to another city or she died. If she died, there’ll most likely be an obituary in the L.A. Times. Of course, it’ll take awhile for you to check all the copies of the newspaper for the year when she no longer appears in the listings, but if it’s important to you…”

“The house has a colorful past. I’d like to know more about it,” Coltrane said.

“With all the problems you have-”

“It’s better than thinking about the last few days.”

“Can’t argue there. What you need is a private investigator.” Nolan pulled a business card from a drawer. “Try this guy. He’ll need whatever you’ve got on her, including a photograph.”

“I don’t have one,” Coltrane lied.

10

RETURNING TO PACKARD’S HOUSE NEAR MIDNIGHT, he was so exhausted he could barely keep his eyes open. A glance in his rearview mirror showed him that his second lengthy conversation with the state police had etched deep fatigue lines into his face, as had his insistence that if they had more questions, they were going to have to wait: He was leaving the next day to go to Connecticut for his grandparents’ funeral.

He put the car in the garage, locked the house’s front door behind him, and finally took halting, weary steps into the living room. There, he accomplished the monumental task of removing the gray slacks and navy blazer that he had worn to Daniel’s funeral so long ago this morning. Tired to the point of dizziness, he sank onto his sleeping bag.

But his mind wouldn’t let him rest. Half-formed nightmares made him twitch. The mangled hands of Ilkovic’s headless corpse seemed to reach up to choke him. Jerking awake, he strained to see the luminous dial on his watch and exhaled in despair when he discovered that the time was only twenty-five after three. Just keep lying here, he told himself. Close your eyes. You’ll soon be asleep again. But his ravaged nervous system refused to obey. Before he left for New Haven, he had to make plane reservations and contact his lawyer about the documents that Duncan had given him. He had to arrange for his accountant to send escrow checks. He had to -

He got up and proceeded through darkness into the dining room and then the kitchen. After turning on a light beneath one of the counters, he found the documents where he had set them next to the stove. He read them and felt that they were straightforward. Had it not been that he wanted to be certain of gaining unquestioned title to the property, he would have signed them right away, without bothering to wait for his lawyer’s opinion. Negotiation wasn’t an issue. At all costs, he intended to gain possession of this house.

Next to the refrigerator, a blinking red light caught his attention: the combination telephone/answering machine Duncan had given him. Coltrane hoped that it was Jennifer who had called. He regretted the way their conversation had ended at the funeral. He wanted to settle their differences. But then he realized that Jennifer couldn’t possibly know the phone number here. It wasn’t listed. He himself hadn’t known until Duncan gave it to him at the end of today’s conversation.

Coltrane pressed the play button. For a moment, he had the irrational fear that Verdi’s Requiem would start playing, that Ilkovic’s guttural voice would again threaten him, that last night hadn’t happened, that his waking nightmare hadn’t really ended. But what he heard instead was almost as troubling.

No message at all. Just silence. Then a click.

Only a wrong number, he told himself.

Sure.

He poured water into a glass, but instead of drinking it, he found himself leaving the kitchen. That was how he perceived his action. He didn’t choose to leave so much as he discovered that he was doing so. The moment he started, however, he knew where he was going.

It took him no time at all to unlock the vault, pull out the section of shelves, and enter the hidden chamber. After Duncan’s visit, he had been careful to put the photographs back and close the wall, lest Duncan – perhaps wondering about what Coltrane had been doing in the vault – might come back to satisfy his curiosity. Again, Coltrane removed the box and took out photograph after photograph, arranging them on shelves, admiring the woman.

When he finally put them away and left the vault, he was surprised to find that the sun had been up for several hours.

11

NEW HAVEN WAS A FOOT OF SNOW, a bitingly cold wind, and a funeral to which almost no one came because most of Coltrane’s grandparents’ friends had died before them. After listening to the minister’s final prayers, he put his gloved hands on each of the coffins and whispered, “Good-bye.”

Back at his grandparents’ house, he began the long, heart-sinking process of disposing of the accumulation of a lifetime. The telephone rang as he sorted through a shoe box full of receipts.

“How are you feeling?” Jennifer asked.

“About what you’d expect.” Snow lancing against the living room window made Coltrane look in that direction.

“I thought I’d call to try to cheer you up.”

“I’m glad you did.” Coltrane thought he heard Jennifer exhale in what might have been nervous relief.

“A lot of memories to deal with, I bet,” Jennifer said.

Coltrane slumped into his grandfather’s rocking chair. “I lived here until I was eighteen, until I moved out to Los Angeles to go to college. Last night, I slept upstairs in my old bedroom. The furniture’s still the same. In fact, it’s even in the same position. The only spot I haven’t… I keep wanting to go down to where I used to hide in the basement when I was a kid – where I used to think about my mother. But I can’t bring myself to look at where” – he could hardly say it – “Ilkovic killed them.”

“Are you going to sell the house?”

“No. I ran into some seniors who were friends of my grandparents. One old couple had their rent raised, and they can’t afford to live in their apartment anymore. I’m going to let them stay here for free. They said they didn’t want charity, so I told them they’d be doing me a favor – that I needed somebody to take care of the place.”

“Nice.”

“Well” – Coltrane looked at the big Christmas tree in the corner of the living room – “it’s that time of year.”