But deep inside that darkness a counterwave, a rebellion of joy, stirred. It was a peaceful wave, breaking on the shores of my spirit. I heard soft voices singing and a very brilliant light came closer and closer to the centre of my forehead. And then suddenly, out of the centre of my forehead, an eye opened, and I saw this light to be the brightest, most beautiful thing in the world. It was terribly hot, but it did not burn. It was fearfully radiant, but it did not blind. As the light came closer, I became more afraid. Then my fear turned. The light went into the new eye and into my brain and roved around my spirit and moved in my veins and circulated in my blood and lodged itselfinmy heart.Andmyheartburnedwithasearingagony,asifitwerebeingburnt to ashes within me. As I began to scream the pain reached its climax and a cool feeling of divine dew spread through me, making the reverse journey of the brilliant light, cooling its flaming passages, till it got back to the centre of my forehead, where it lingered, the feeling of a kiss for ever imprinted, a mystery and a riddle that not even the dead can answer.

EIGHT

MUM HELD THE candle in her hand. The wax dripped down on to her fragile skin. She did not flinch. She did not move. Her eyes were wide open. Her face was a rock in the dark shadows where the candle-light couldn’t reach.

‘One day I will tell you the story of how Death was conquered,’ she said, in the voice of a mysterious priestess.

She stared at me for a long time. The candle-light created a golden aureole round the scattered fringes of her hair. The wax turned white on her fragile skin. She put down the candle and peeled off the wax. She stared beyond me. There was fear and love in her eyes. She moved her hand across the darkness and created a raft in the shadows. It was abluedarkness. Everythingturned blue.

I floated on the raft and found myself on the mat. The candle had burned low on the table. There were mosquitoes and midges in the room and the window was open. The wind blew in, fluttering the candle, and it brought the smells of the world cleansed by the freshness of the night air.

Someone tapped gently on the door of my spirit. I opened the door and found the photographer outside. At first I didn’t recognise him. I hadn’t seen him for many days. He looked different. His face shone with health. His eyes were bright. His mood was buoyant as though he had discovered fields of hope somewhere in the night.

‘It’s me,’ he said, a little hesitantly, ‘the International Photographer.’

He came in half crouching, half bouncing. His spirit swung between fear and buoyancy. He had new cases for his equipment. On his photographic encasement was written the legend, white against the black leather: TO BECOME A MAN. Was it a question unasked, a riddle unstated, or a declaration unfinished? I had no idea. I stared at the words, mesmerised.

‘Do you remember me?’ he whispered, as I locked the door.

‘Where have you been?’

‘Round the world and back.’‘How is that?’‘Wonders will never cease.’‘Why not?’Hedidn’tanswermy question.Welistenedtothesleepingworld.Stillwhispering, he said:

‘I am going to move soon. I am going to get another job soon. Is there any food? I think thosethugs havestopped lookingfor me. Thelandlord wants meto moveaway from his house. I am hungry.’

‘There is no food.’

‘Why not?’

‘Didn’t you see the door?’

‘What door?’

‘Our door.’

‘Of course I saw it.’

‘You didn’t.’

‘How did I get into the room?’

‘You didn’t see it.’

‘Why not?’

‘Somepeopletriedtobreakitdown.Thenthey putsomethingstrangeonit.’

‘Why?’

‘I don’t know.’

‘Who did it?’

‘We don’t know.’

‘Wickedness will never cease.’

‘What?’

‘So there is no food?’

‘They poured water on our fire when Mum was cooking.’ Dad turned on the bed.He grunted in his sleep. The rats began to eat. Mum chewed her mouth and fell silent.

‘Why?’

‘I don’t know. Mum thinks they might poison us.’

‘Ssssshhhhhh!’

‘What?’

‘A spirit passingmight hear you.’

‘What will it do?’

‘Depends.’

‘On what?’

‘Is there any garri?’

‘Yes.’

He went to the cupboard and, quiet as a thief, dug out some garri from the basin with a bowl. He poured water in the bowl, got rid of the excess water in the passage, put salt and cubes of sugar in the garri, some more water to achieve his desired eccentric balance, and ate. The simple food satisfied him. When he finished he said:

‘Show me the door.’

I took the candle outside, cupping the flame against the wind. He studied the gashes, touched the foul-smelling red stuff, smelt it, tasted it, and said:

‘Blood of a wild boar.’ ‘How do you know?’

‘I used to be a hunter.’

We went back in. He knelt in silence on the mat.

‘Maybeit’s becauseof me,’ hesaid after alongtime. Hepaused.

‘I will go soon. I will disappear. I will go underground.’ Another pause.

‘I don’t want to bringyou trouble.’

The wind blew in through the window and blew out the candle. We stayed in the dark. When he spoke again his voice had changed. ‘Do you know what I did today?’

‘No.’ ‘I took photographs of women at the market being attacked by thugs. The women fought them back. I took pictures of riots against our white rulers. I took pictures of a policeman takingbribes. Thepoliceman saw meand pursued me. I escaped.’ ‘How?’ ‘Magic.’ ‘How?’ ‘I turned invisible.’ ‘How?’ ‘I have a lot of powers.’ ‘Then why are you hiding?’ ‘Because if you have power you don’t use it all the time.’ ‘What else can you do?’ ‘I can fly.’ ‘To where?’ ‘To the moon.’

‘How?’ ‘On a flash.’ ‘I don’t believe you.’ ‘Last night I flew to the moon and took pictures of its incredible face.’ ‘Let me see them.’ ‘Another time.’ ‘Why not now?’ ‘Because I have to sleep.’ ‘What else can you do?’ ‘I can change people’s faces.’

‘How?’‘With my camera.’ ‘Into what?’‘I can make them ugly or beautiful.’

‘Why?’‘Because I can do it.’‘What else can you do?’‘I can drink ten bottles of ogogoro without getting drunk.’ The rats began to chew.‘Can you understand what the rats are saying?’ ‘No.’‘Can you talk to them?’‘No. But I can kill them.’‘Why?’‘Because they are never satisfied. They are like bad politicians and imperialists and rich people.’ ‘How?’ ‘They eatup property.They eatup everythinginsight.Andoneday whenthey are very hungry they will eat us up.’ I was silent. ‘When you wake up tomorrow all the rats will be gone. I will finish them off. I will use my powerful medicine and my secret charms. But they won’t work if you don’t sleep.’ He got up and shut the window. We lay on the mat. I tried to sleep but the rats went on chewing and the mosquitoes went on tormenting us. ‘I can teach you how to fly to the moon,’ he said in the dark. ‘How?’ ‘Just think about the moon and fall asleep.’

I tried it. I fell asleep, but I did not fly to the moon, nor did I even dream about its mysterious face. And I didn’t wake up early enough to tell the photographer that what he taught me hadn’t worked.