Denise relished every minute of it. It was gratifying to watch Kyle trying-and enjoying!-new things, and walking around the carnival provided a pleasant change from the world in which she normally lived. There were times when she almost felt like someone else, someone she didn’t know. As twilight descended, the lights from the rides blinked on; as the sky darkened even further, the energy of the crowds seemed to intensify, as if everyone knew all this would be over the following day.
Everything was just right, as she had barely dared to hope it would be.
Or, if possible, even better than that.
Once they got home, Denise got a cup of milk and led Kyle into his room. She propped the giant panda in the corner so he could see it, then helped Kyle change into his pajamas. After leading him through his prayers, she gave him his milk.
His eyes were already closing.
By the time she finished reading him a story, Kyle was breathing deeply.
Slipping from the room, she left the door partially open.
Taylor was waiting for her in the kitchen, his long legs stretched out under the table.
“He’s down for the count,” she said.
“That was fast.”
“It’s been a big day for him. He’s not usually up this late.”
The kitchen was lit by a single overhead bulb. The other had burned out the week before, and she suddenly wished she had changed it. It seemed just a little too dim, a little too intimate, in the small kitchen. Seeking space, she fell back on tradition.
“Would you like something to drink?”
“I’ll take a beer if you have one.”
“My selection isn’t quite that big.”
“What do you have?”
“Iced tea.”
“And?”
She shrugged. “Water?”
He couldn’t help but smile. “Tea’s fine.”
She poured two glasses and handed one to him, wishing she had something stronger to serve both of them. Something to take the edge off the way she was feeling.
“It’s a little warm in here,” she said evenly, “would you like to sit on the porch?”
“Sure.”
They made their way outside and sat in the rockers, Denise closest to the door so she could listen for Kyle if he woke up.
“Now this is nice,” Taylor said after making himself comfortable.
“What do you mean?”
“This. Sitting outside. I feel like I’m on an episode of The Waltons.”
Denise laughed, feeling some of her nervousness disperse. “Don’t you like to sit on the porch?”
“Sure, but I hardly ever do it. It’s one of those things that I never seem to have time for anymore.”
“A good ol’ boy from the South like yourself?” she said, repeating the words he’d used the day before. “I would have thought a guy like you would sit outside on your porch with a banjo, playing song after song, a dog lying at your feet.”
“With my kinfolk and a jar of moonshine and a spittoon o’er yonder?”
She grinned. “Of course.”
He shook his head. “If I didn’t know you were from the South, I’d think you were insulting me.”
“But because I’m from Atlanta?”
“I’ll let it slide this time.” He felt the corners of his mouth curling into a smile. “So what do you miss the most about the big city?”
“Not a lot. I suppose if I were younger and Kyle wasn’t around, this place would drive me crazy. But I don’t need big malls, or fancy places to eat, or museums anymore. There was a time when I thought those things were important, but they weren’t really an option during the last few years, even when I was living there.”
“Do you miss your friends?”
“Sometimes. We try to keep in touch. Letters, phone calls, things like that. But how about you? Didn’t you ever get the urge to just pack up and move away?”
“Not really. I’m happy here, and besides, my mom is here. I’d feel bad leaving her alone.”
Denise nodded. “I don’t know that I would have moved if my mom were still alive, but I don’t think so.”
Taylor suddenly found himself thinking about his father.
“You’ve been through a lot in your life,” he said.
“Too much, I sometimes think.”
“But you keep going.”
“I have to. I’ve got someone counting on me.”
Their conversation was interrupted by a rustle in the bushes, followed by an almost catlike scream. Two raccoons scurried out of the woods, across the lawn. They scampered past the light reflected from the porch, and Denise stood, trying to get a better view. Taylor joined her at the porch railing, peering into the darkness. The raccoons stopped and turned, finally noticing two people on the porch, then continued across the lawn before vanishing from sight.
“They come out almost every night. I think they’re scrounging for food.”
“Probably. Either that or your garbage cans.”
Denise nodded knowingly. “When I first moved here, I thought dogs were the ones who kept digging through them. Then I caught those two in the act one night. At first I didn’t know what they were.”
“You’ve never seen a raccoon before?”
“Of course I have. But not in the middle of the night, not crawling through my garbage, and certainly not on my porch. My apartment in Atlanta didn’t have a real big wildlife problem. Spiders, yes; varmints, no.”
“You’re like that kid’s story about the city mouse that hops on the wrong truck and gets stuck in the country.”
“Believe me, I feel that way sometimes.”
With her hair moving slightly in the breeze, Taylor was struck again by how pretty she was. “So what was your life like? Growing up in Atlanta, I mean?”
“Probably a little bit like yours.”
“What do you mean?” he asked curiously.
She met his eyes, drawing out the words as if they were a revelation. “We were both only children, raised by widowed mothers who grew up in Edenton.”
At her words, Taylor felt something unexpectedly flinch inside. Denise went on.
“You know how it is. You feel a little different because other people have two parents, even if they’re divorced. It’s like you grow up knowing that you’re missing something important that everyone else has, but you don’t know exactly what it is. I remember hearing my friends talking about how their fathers wouldn’t let them stay out late or didn’t like their boyfriends. It used to make me so angry because they didn’t even realize what they had. Do you know what I mean?”
Taylor nodded, realizing with sudden clarity how much they had in common.
“But other than that, my life was pretty typical. I lived with my mom, I went to Catholic schools, shopped with my friends, went to the proms, and worried every time I got a pimple that people wouldn’t like me anymore.”
“You call that typical?”
“It is if you’re a girl.”
“I never worried about things like that.”
She shot him a sidelong glance. “You weren’t raised by my mother.”
“No, but Judy’s mellowed some in her old age. She was a little more stern when I was younger.”
“She said that you were always getting into trouble.”
“And I suppose you were perfect.”
“I tried,” she said playfully.
“But you weren’t?”
“No, but obviously I was better at fooling my mother than you were.”
Taylor chuckled. “That’s good to hear. If there’s one thing I can’t stand, it’s perfection.”
“Especially when it’s someone else, right?”
“Right.”
There was a brief lull in the conversation before Taylor spoke again.
“Do you mind if I ask you a question?” he said almost tentatively.
“It depends on the question,” she answered, trying not to tense up.
Taylor glanced away, toward the edge of the property again, pretending to look for the raccoons. “Where’s Kyle’s father?” he asked after a moment.
Denise had known it was coming.
“He’s not around. I didn’t really even know him. Kyle wasn’t supposed to happen.”
“Does he know about Kyle?”
“I called him when I was pregnant. He told me straight up he didn’t want anything to do with him.”