I call on the East Gate to close and bind thee I call on the gods who would listen to me I call on the wind and the earth and the sea I call on fire to help bind thee In this god’s name I set my geas That this binding cannot be broken By my will and by these words By these powers and by my skill I bind thee for eternity

“In Cernunnos’s name I set this geas?” Gary asked, grinning. I reached out and clapped a hand over his mouth, startling even myself. Above my fingers, his eyes widened. “Wwwf wng?”

I looked back at the chant. It still looked like nonsense, but I shivered anyway, discomfited. “I don’t think we should read that out loud.”

Gary’s eyebrows went up a little and he glanced at the computer before shrugging. “Okay.”

What, that was it? Just “okay” ? My surprise must have shown on my face, because he shook his head, smiling. “Jeez, lady, don’t you ever go on gut feelings?”

I spread my hands. “No.”

“Well, that’s what you been goin’ on since I met you. Better get used to it.”

“God, I have been, haven’t I?” I looked around for my glasses and put them back on. “Tomorrow,” I said firmly, “I will wake up normal and rational again.”

“And have answers to all your problems, right?”

I smiled halfheartedly. “Right.”

“Sounds like a good plan to me.” Gary sighed and ran a hand back through his hair. He didn’t have a lot of it, and what there was, was white. It was the only thing that made him look somewhere around his age. Even his wrinkles were sort of Ernest Hemingway wrinkles, like they were from too much squinting into the sun rather than age. They made him look dependable, not old. “Well, lady, I’m an old man and I’ve been up since early, so I’m heading home. I gotta go to work in the morning.”

“Yeah, okay. Me, I’m going to…” I trailed off and frowned at the computer.

“Gonna what?” Gary prompted. I shrugged.

“I’m going to find out who murdered Marie.”

“No fair having all the fun without me. My shift ends at two. I’ll see you then, maybe.”

“All right. In the meantime, don’t pick up any guys with swords. Oh, hey. Your car. You want a ride to Marie’s, um, to where Marie lived, um, to your car?” I stood up, digging in my pocket for my car keys as an attempt to keep my mouth from running off and making me sound even more idiotic.

“You don’t have to do that,” Gary dissembled, but I’d just spent weeks in Ireland. There’s a certain protocol I’d learned there.

In Ireland, you go to someone’s house, and she asks you if you want a cup of tea. You say no, thank you, you’re really just fine. She asks if you’re sure. You say of course you’re sure, really, you don’t need a thing. Except they pronounce it ting. You don’t need a ting. Well, she says then, I was going to get myself some anyway, so it would be no trouble. Ah, you say, well, if you were going to get yourself some, I wouldn’t mind a spot of tea, at that, so long as it’s no trouble and I can give you a hand in the kitchen. Then you go through the whole thing all over again until you both end up in the kitchen drinking tea and chatting.

In America, someone asks you if you want a cup of tea, you say no, and then you don’t get any damned tea.

I liked the Irish way better.

“No, really,” I said. “It’s the middle of the night and there’s a crazy man with a knife between here and there, and besides, I need to stop at the store and get something to eat for breakfast tomorrow. There’s no food here at all.”

“Well, if you’re sure,” Gary said, and I fought back a grin as we headed for the door.

I sat in the parking lot after Gary pulled out, both my hands on the steering wheel. I was tired, but it was the kind of twilight tired where I felt a little lighter than air and not quite like I could sleep. I knew I could, but as long as the false high was with me, I thought I should run with it. Somewhere not very far above me was a dead woman who’d needed my help, and somewhere inside my head things had happened that I didn’t understand. I leaned forward, folding my hands on top of each other on the steering wheel, and rested my forehead against them. I could smell the old leather on the wheel, and a faint lingering scent of a perfume I rarely wore.

Cars are my refuge, my comfort food. My first real memory is looking out the window of my father’s great big old Oldsmobile. I was about three, too little to know I’d be making a trip like that every few months until I left home. Dad tells me that when I was too little to see the cars, I’d hear them and go, “Oom!” because that’s what I thought they sounded like. He got into the habit of saying, “Zoom!” and “Vroom!” to make me happy. I still do it myself, from time to time.

Marie’s murder was a little too surreal for me. People you’ve just met aren’t supposed to end up dead twelve hours later. I shook my head and let my mind slide off that for a moment.

Of course, that left Cernunnos and Coyote to think about. You want to talk about surreal. I groaned quietly and thumped my head against the wheel. I should be going home. I should be at home, looking up Native American legends on the Net. Native American legends, and dream interpretation, and the name of a good psychologist, since it was pretty clear I was losing my mind. I rubbed the heel of my hand over my breastbone. It kept right on not having a hole in it. I kept right on not being dead. This was beyond mortal ken.

And dammit, I didn’t believe in beyond mortal ken. What did an atheist do if God shows up on the doorstep? I’d invited him in for breakfast.

A sharp rap on the window startled me into bolting upright. I drove the heel of my hand into the horn. A broad face under a blue hat leaned over the windshield, wincing quizzically. I puffed my cheeks out and took my hand off the horn, opening the door to hang out of it.

“Was I speeding, Officer?”

“Didn’t know it was you, Joey. Just wanted to check and make sure everything was okay.”

“Hi, Ray. Define okay.” I smiled wanly. Raymond was a short wide guy whom I was pretty sure could bench press a Buick. Not the fastest on his feet, but between him and a nuclear bunker, I’d take him every time. He stuck his hand out, and I stood up, leaning over the door to shake it.

“Heard you got your balls busted,” he said sympathetically. Ball-busting was Ray’s favorite term and he applied it with blithe disregard to gender-based improbability. “Guess I never thought about you going to the academy. But you’re a real cop, huh? What’re you doing out here?”

“I’m a real cop,” I agreed. “Sort of.” The other question was easier to answer: I pointed a finger up toward Marie’s apartment. “I found the body a few hours ago.”

“Coming back to the scene of the crime? Common criminal mistake, you know. You know this is the fifth murder like this in the past couple weeks?” Ray shook his head.

My eyebrows went up. “I didn’t. Just got back from Europe.” God, that sounded pretentious. “What do they have in common?”

Ray shook his head again. “Not much. Different age ranges, different races, different day jobs, different genders, no phone calls to or from the same numbers, not even pizza joints. Different parts of the city, different everything.”

“No, there’s something linking them,” I said absently. I tugged my glasses off and pinched the bridge of my nose, glasses dangling from my fingertips. A piece of wire contracted around my heart and I took a deep breath, trying to shake the feeling off. A brief image of the spiderwebbed windshield flashed behind my eyelids. I frowned, trying to shake that off, too.

“Yeah? Don’t suppose you can tell me what it is.” Ray reached up and twisted his hat on his head. His hair was visibly thinner right where his hat sat on his head, from doing that for years. It occurred to me that I knew the guys at the department inside and out, but I couldn’t remember the last time I’d had a date. My heart was still tight, the spiderweb image still bothering me. I put my shoulders back, trying to breathe.