This was a word that made her throat go dry.
Hope’s mother had just come in from raking leaves when her phone rang. As was her custom, she reached for the receiver with a twinge of uncertainty.
“Hello, dear,” Catherine Frazier said. “This is a surprise. It’s been weeks and weeks since we spoke last.”
“Hello, Mother,” Hope said a little guiltily. “I’ve been busy with school and the team, and time has slipped away. How are you?”
“Why, just fine. Settling in and getting ready for winter. The locals all think we’re in for a long one.”
Hope took a single deep breath. Her relationship with her mother was marred by an underlying tension. While outwardly civil, it was as if it were constantly being tightened, like a knot holding a wind-filled sail, as the gusts around them increased. Catherine Frazier was a lifelong Vermonter, liberal almost to a fault in her political views-save one; the most important one to her daughter. She was a stalwart in the local Catholic church in the small town of Putney, which was adjacent to the more upscale, ex-hippie-populated, whole-wheat-and-granola town of Brattleboro-a woman who had survived the early death of her husband, never thinking about remarrying, who now enjoyed living at the edge of the woods alone. She still harbored considerable doubts about her daughter’s relationship with Sally. She kept these to herself, living in a state that welcomed civil unions between women, but prayed fervently on Sunday mornings for some sort of understanding that had eluded her year in and year out, which had hardened the connections between them. Sometimes, in past years, she had bought up these feelings in the confessional, but she had grown tired of saying Hail Marys and Our Fathers because they rarely made her feel any more comfortable.
Hope thought her failure to be normal and to provide grandchildren was somehow at the root of the tension, which grew in volume both when they did talk and when they didn’t, for the real subject that they should have addressed was never raised between them.
“I need a favor,” Hope said.
“Anything, dear,” Catherine replied.
Hope knew that this was a lie. There were more than a few favors that she might have asked for from her mother that might not have been granted.
“It has to do with Ashley. She needs to get out of Boston for a while.”
“But what could possibly be the matter? She’s not ill, is she? There hasn’t been an accident?”
“No, not precisely, but…”
“Does she need money? I have lots of money and I’d be glad to help out.”
“No, Mother. Let me explain.”
“But what about her graduate studies?”
“Those can be put on hold.”
“Dear, this is very confusing. What is the problem?”
Hope took a deep breath and blurted out, “It’s a man.”
When Scott first tried Ashley’s cell phone that night, he got a No longer in service recording, which pitched him into a near panic as he dialed her landline. When she answered, he felt a surge of anxiety. As he greeted her, he concentrated on keeping fear out of his voice.
“Hey, Ash,” he said briskly, “how are you doing?”
Ashley, for her part, was unsure what the answer to that question might be. She could not shake the sensation that she was being watched, that she was being followed, or that every word she spoke was being listened to. She was tentative when she left her apartment, wary when she walked down the street, leery of every shadow, every corner, every blind alleyway. Ordinary city sounds that she was so familiar with now penetrated her ears like some high-pitched whistle, almost painful in intensity.
She decided that she should partly lie. She did not want to upset her father.
“I’m okay. Things are just a bit of a mess.”
“Have you heard from O’Connell again?”
She didn’t exactly reply, except to say, “Dad, I’ve got to take some steps.”
“Yes,” he said far too quickly. “Yes. Absolutely.”
“I’ve canceled the cell phone,” she said, which explained the recording.
“Yes, and cancel this line as well. In fact, I think you’re going to have to do far more than we ever anticipated.”
“I’ve got to move,” she said sullenly. “I like this place, but…”
“I think,” Scott began tentatively, “that you’re going to have to do more than just move.”
Ashley didn’t immediately respond.
“And there are some other steps-”
“What are you saying?” Ashley blurted out.
Scott took a deep breath and adopted his most reasoned, most flat and academic tone, as if he were discussing the flaws in a senior’s paper. “I’ve done some reading and research, and I don’t want to leap to conclusions here, but I’m thinking that there exists the potential for O’Connell to get, well, even more aggressive.”
“Aggressive. That’s a euphemism. You think he might hurt me?”
“Others, in similar circumstances, have been hurt. I’m just saying we should take some precautions.”
More silence, before she responded, “What are you suggesting?”
“I think you need to disappear. That is, exit Boston, go someplace safe, hide for a while, and then resume things when O’Connell has finally moved on.”
“What makes you so sure he will move on? Maybe he will just wait it out.”
“We have resources, Ashley. If you have to leave Boston behind for good, move to L.A. or Chicago or Miami, well, that can be done. You’re still young. Plenty of time to get where you want. I think we just need to take some significant steps, so that O’Connell can’t find you again.”
Ashley could feel anger surging within her. “He doesn’t have the right,” she began, raising her voice. “Why should it be me? What have I done wrong? Why does he get to screw up my life?”
Scott let his daughter fully vent before answering. This was a quality left over from her childhood, when early on he’d learned that letting Ashley bluster and complain would settle her down, and that ultimately she would listen if not to reason, then at least to something close to it. A father’s trick.
“He doesn’t have the right. He just has the ability. So, let’s try to make some moves that he won’t anticipate. And, first among these, is getting you away from him.”
Again, Scott could sense Ashley measuring things on the other end of the phone. He had little idea that much of what he’d said had already occurred to her. Still, what he was suggesting seemed to discourage her, and Ashley found her eyes welling with tears. Nothing was fair. When she did speak, it was with resignation.
“All right, Dad. Time for Ashley to vanish.”
“So, they hired a private investigator?”
“Yes. An extremely competent and well-trained fellow.”
“That makes sense. It also seems like the sort of reasonable thing that any modestly well-educated and financially sturdy couple would arrange. Like bringing in an expert. I should go speak with him. He must have prepared some sort of report for Sally. That’s what private investigators always end up doing. It must be available, somewhere.”
“Yes. You are correct about that,” she said. “There was a report. An initial one. I have the copy that was sent to Sally.”
“Well?”
“Why don’t you try to speak with Matthew Murphy first. And then, afterwards, I’ll give it to you, should you think you still need it.”
“You could save me some trouble here.”
“Perhaps,” she replied. “I’m not sure that saving you time and effort is precisely my task in this process. And, equally, I think visiting the private investigator will be…how shall I put it? An education.”
She smiled, but humorlessly, and I had the distinct impression that she was teasing me with something. I stood up to leave, shrugging my shoulders. She sighed, seeing the discouraged look I had on my face.
“Sometimes, it’s about impressions,” she said abruptly. “You learn something, you hear something, you see something, and it leaves an imprint on your imagination. Eventually, that is what happens to Scott and Sally and Hope and Ashley, as well. A series of events, or moments of time, all taken together accumulate into a fully formed vision of what their future might be. Go see the private detective,” she said with a brisk tone. “It will add immeasurably to your understanding. And then, if you think it necessary, I’ll give you his report.”