I nodded.

"Yeah, I'll be there."

"You know, Jack, when Gladden took out the camera, he took down the sound as well. We don't know what was said in there. So tell me, did Gladden say anything?"

I thought a moment. The memory was still coming back to me.

"First he said he didn't kill anybody. Then he admitted killing Sean. He said he killed my brother."

Backus arched his eyebrows as if surprised and then nodded.

"Okay, Jack, we'll see you then." He turned to Rachel. "You said you'll get him back to the room?"

"Yes, Bob."

"Okay."

Backus left the room with his head down and I felt bad. I didn't think he had accepted my explanation and I wondered if he would always blame me for how horribly wrong things had gone.

"What will happen to him?" I asked.

"Well, the first thing is there's a lobby full of media out there and he's got to tell them how this got all fucked up. After that I'm sure the director will want Professional Standards to come out to investigate the planning of this. Its not going to get any better for him."

"It was Thorson's plan. Can't they just-"

"Bob approved it. If somebody has to take a fall, Gordon isn't around anymore."

Looking through the open door where Backus had just walked I saw a doctor stop and look in. He carried a stethoscope in his hand and several pens in the pocket of his white jacket.

"Everything okay in here?" he inquired.

"Fine."

"We're fine," Rachel added.

She turned away from the door and looked at me.

"You sure?"

I nodded.

"I'm so glad you are okay. That was a foolish thing you did."

"I just thought he could use the coffee. I didn't ex-"

"I mean going for the gun. Getting it from Gladden."

I shook my shoulders. Maybe it was foolish, I thought, but maybe it saved my life.

"How did you know, Rachel?"

"Know what?"

"You asked me what would happen if I ever faced him. It was like you knew."

"I didn't know, Jack. It was just a question."

She reached up and traced my jawline like she did when I'd had the beard. Then with her finger she tilted my chin up until I was looking at her. She moved in between my legs and pulled me into a deep kiss. It was healing and sensual at the same time. I closed my eyes. My good hand went up under her jacket and I rested it lightly on her breast.

When she pulled away I opened my eyes and over her shoulder I saw the doctor who had poked his head in earlier turning away.

"Peeping Tom," I said.

"What?"

"That doctor. I think he was watching us."

"Never mind him. Are you ready to go?"

"Yeah, I'm ready."

"Did you get a prescription for pain?"

"I'm supposed to get some pills before I sign out."

"You can't sign out. The media's up there and they'll be all over you."

"Damn, I forgot. I've got to call in."

I looked at my watch. It was almost eight in Denver. Greg Glenn was probably there, waiting to hear from me, refusing to release the front page to the printers until he'd heard from me. I figured the latest he could go would be nine. I looked around. There was a phone on the wall above a supplies and equipment counter at the back of the room.

"Could you go tell them I can't sign out up there?" I asked. "In the meantime I'll just call in at the Rocky and tell them I'm still alive."

Glenn was almost delirious when I got through to him.

"Jack, where the hell you been?"

"I've sort of been tied up. I-"

"Are you okay? The wires say you were shot."

"I'm okay. I'll be typing one-handed for a while."

"The wires say the Poet's dead. AP quotes one source who says you… uh, killed him."

"AP's got a good source."

"Jesus, Jack."

I didn't reply.

"CNN's been going live from the scene every ten minutes but they don't have shit. There's supposed to be a press conference at the hospital."

"Right. And if you can get me hooked up with somebody to take some rewrite, I can give you enough of the story for the front page. It will be better than anyone else gets tonight."

He said nothing in response.

"Greg?"

"Wait a minute, Jack. I have to think. You…"

He didn't finish but I waited him out.

"Jack, I'm going to put you on the line with Jackson. Tell what you can to him. He'll also take notes off the press conference if CNN carries it."

"Wait a minute. I don't want to give anything to Jackson. Just give me a copy messenger or a clerk and I'll dictate the story. It's going to be better than what they put out at the press conference."

"No, Jack, you can't. It's different now."

"What are you talking about?"

"You're not covering the story anymore. You are part of it. You killed the guy who killed your brother. You killed the Poet. The story's about you now. You can't write it. I'm putting you on with Jackson. But do me a favor. Stay away from the other reporters out there. Give us a one-day exclusive on our own guy, at least."

"Look, I've always been part of this story."

"Yeah, but you didn't shoot anybody. Jack, that's not what reporters do. That's what cops do and you crossed that line. You're off the story. I'm sorry."

"It was him or me, Greg."

"I'm sure it was and thank God it was him. But that doesn't change things, Jack."

I said nothing. In my mind I knew he was right about me not writing it. I just couldn't believe it. It was my story and now it was gone. I was inside still but I was out.

Just as Rachel came back in the room with a clipboard and several forms for me to sign, Jackson came on the line. He told me what a great story it was going to be and started asking questions. I answered them all and told him some things unasked. I signed the forms where Rachel pointed as I talked.

The interview was quick. Jackson said he wanted to watch the press conference on CNN so he would have official comment and confirmation to go with my version of events. He asked if I would call back in an hour in case of follow-up questions and I agreed. We then hung up and I was thankful to get off the line.

"Well, now that you just signed away your life and your firstborn son, you're free to go," Rachel said. "You sure you don't want to read any of this stuff?"

"Nah, let's go. You get the painkillers? My hand's beginning to hurt again."

"Yes, right here."

She pulled a vial out of her coat pocket and handed it to me along with a stack of pink phone message slips, apparently taken at the hospital's front desk.

"What are…"

There were calls from news producers at the three networks, "Nightline" with Ted Koppel, and two of the morning shows, and from reporters at the New York Times and the Washington Post.

"You're a celebrity, Jack," Rachel said. "You went face to face with the devil and survived. People want to ask you how that felt. People always want to know about the devil."

I shoved the messages into my back pocket.

"You going to call them?"

"Nope. Let's go."

On the way back to Hollywood I told Rachel I didn't want to spend the night in the Wilcox Hotel. I said I wanted to order room service and then lie in a comfortable bed and watch TV with a remote in my hand, amenities that the Wilcox obviously didn't offer. She saw my point.

After we stopped at the Wilcox so I could get my things and check out, Rachel drove down Sunset Boulevard toward the strip. At the Chateau Marmont she stayed in the car while I went to the desk. I said I wanted a room with a view and didn't care what it cost. They gave me a room with a balcony that cost more than I'd ever spent for a hotel in my life. The balcony was overlooking the Marlboro man and the rest of the billboards on the strip. I liked looking at the Marlboro Man. Rachel didn't bother getting her own room.

We didn't talk much while we ate our room service dinner. Instead, we maintained a kind of comfortable silence that couples of many years achieve. Afterward, I took a long bath and listened over the bathroom speaker to the CNN report on the shootout at Digital Imaging. There was nothing new. More questions than answers. A good portion of the news conference was focused on Thorson and the ultimate sacrifice he had made. For the first time I thought about Rachel and how she was dealing with this. She had lost her ex-husband. A man she had grown to despise but someone she had shared an intimate relationship with just the same.