areas. Mostly proficient in drinking more than he was in driving.

He had a criminal record a mile long. He was a repeat offender.

He would be pulled over and fined. His car and his licence would be taken off him and he would get them back. It became a routine.

He just kept on going back out on the roads, and the world just kept on letting him. When the fines increased, it didn’t matter.

He just kept on paying them, racking up his mortgage account

with drunk-driving conviction payouts. There wasn’t anything

the criminal system was prepared to do about it except take a

collective breath each time to see if this would be the one when he killed somebody. Nobody cared. As long as he paid his fines, he was a source of income. He was revenue. He was good for the country.

The connection between Alderman’s wife and my own is a

strong one in some ways but not in others. We both lost our

own lives the day we lost parts of our family. He spiralled into an abyss that he is still in now. I have an abyss of my own. I figure if Alderman had done something all those years ago, maybe he would be a different man. But like he said, he did nothing.

I figure if I’d done nothing, I’d be a different man too.

Better men? We could be. Or we could be worse.

‘You took the law into your own hands,’ he says. ‘You did it

after the accident, and you did it again last night. You killed my son. You killed him for doing nothing. Ten years ago, when Lucy died, I did nothing. Not this time. This time you are going to pay. Your wife is going to pay. And this time your friends in the department can’t do a damn thing to help you.’

The temperature in this impossibly cold house drops even

further. It’s like somebody has just strapped a block of ice onto my back. I can feel the weight of it pushing me down. I tighten my grip on the phone. The air is thick and damp and tastes like sour sweat, and all the words in the newspaper article seem to swirl around as if the ink is wet and running.

‘You better be fucking kidding right now, you son of a bitch.’

‘You think the police are kidding and my son isn’t really dead?

What do you think, Tate?’

‘My wife has nothing to do with this.’

‘How can you be so stupid as to think bad things don’t happen

all the time to innocent people? You know that first hand. You experienced it last night when you killed my boy. You experienced it two years ago. And you’re experiencing it right now.’

The phone goes dead. I look at the display. The battery hasn’t gone flat. Alderman has hung up.

I dial him back. He doesn’t answer.

I hit the driveway running. I reach the car, and the tyres shriek a little and leave some rubber behind. I speed past the cemetery where a patrol car is just entering the gates. The driver looks back over his shoulder but he doesn’t turn around and try to pull me over. The cemetery and the patrol car quickly get smaller in my mirror. I call the care home where my wife lives — if ‘live’ is an appropriate word. She resides, maybe, not lives. A nurse I’ve spoken to only a few times answers the phone. I ask for Nurse

Hamilton. A moment later she comes on the line.

‘Theo? What can I help you with?’

‘It’s Bridget.’

‘What about her?’

“I think she’s in danger. I need you to go and check on her.’

‘Danger? What kind of danger?’

‘Can you just check to make sure she’s okay? Then stay with

her until I get there.’

‘But…’

‘Please, I’m on my way. Just go and check on her.’

‘Fine, but I can tell you now there aren’t any problems. We

provide excellent care, as you know, and …’

‘I’ll stay on the line,’ I say, hoping it will hurry her up. It does.

I continue to speed. I wish I had my car from two years ago

with the siren installed. I wish I could flash and sound it at the surrounding traffic to get them the hell out of the way.

I hit three green lights in a row; I run through two oranges.

And 1 slow down for a red before accelerating between cars to a chorus of blasting horns.

Nurse Hamilton comes back. I hear her pick up the phone but

she doesn’t say anything. It’s as though she’s on the other end of the line composing her thoughts. Trying to figure what she needs to say. Figuring it because there’s a problem.

‘Carol?’

‘Bridget is in her room,’ she says.

Are you sure?’

‘Of course I’m sure.’

is somebody with her right now?’

‘We have very adequate staff here, Mr Tate,’ she says, speaking formally, as if giving testimony to a jury.

‘That’s not why I’m calling. Look, it’s hard to explain, but

I’m almost there. Please just do me the favour of staying with her until I arrive.’

‘Very well, Theo. We’ll

I don’t hear the end because the phone cuts out. I look at

the display and watch it going through the motions of powering down. I try to revive it so I can call Landry or Schroder, but the battery is completely drained.

I get to the care home ten minutes later. The day has cleared up even more, bits of blue sky threatening to grow as the afternoon moves on. I look around at the other cars, trying to figure if one of them is out of place, but I don’t even know what Alderman

would be driving.

Inside, I rush past the nurses’ station. The woman at the desk recognises me as the guy who rang not long ago and gives me the sort of look that suggests I’ve ruined her afternoon.

Bridget is sitting in front of the window the same as any other day. Being here in the early afternoon is no different than being here in the early evening. She’s not watching TV Not getting up and taking a shower or doing a crossword puzzle. Her world is

twenty-four seven and there are no breaks. I rush to her and hug her and she doesn’t hug back, but that’s okay.

‘This is all very out of the ordinary,’ Carol says.

I pull back and hold Bridget’s hand. ‘Has anybody come here

to visit her?’

‘Nobody who hasn’t visited before.’

‘What about somebody else? Anybody unknown show up to

visit anybody at all?’

‘What is your point, Theo?’

My point is simple for me, though perhaps not for her. Still, I decide to give it a go.

I explain the conversation I had with Alderman, touching

only on a few of the points, and even then only briefly. She takes it all in her stride, as I figure only a cop or a care-home nurse could — both have seen way too much to be surprised any more.

In the end she points out that nothing bad has happened, therefore the man who threatened Bridget must have been lying, must have been making a desperate attempt to upset me because of his son.

The care home is a top-rate facility, she reminds me, and they let nothing happen to their charges. She does make a concession about being more vigilant, and tells me to call the police. I tell her that I will.

She leaves me alone with Bridget. I don’t want to leave her

here. Not any more. I want to be able to take her with me, but where to? Back to my house? How would I even begin to look

after her? No. She’s safer here.

Carol comes back. ‘There’s a phone call for you. You can take

it in the office.’

I follow her back downstairs.

‘Hello?’

‘How did it feel, huh?’ Alderman asks. ‘To think she was dead?

To think I had done something to her? That’s how I feel, you

bastard. You killed my son, so for me the feeling is always there.

It’s going to stay the same. I wanted you to know how it was

going to feel. I wanted you to imagine the loss. And not the

same loss you suffered two years ago. But the kind of loss that’s deliberate, the kind of loss you can only experience when one

human being goes out of his way to kill someone you love. Hurts, doesn’t it? But I just did you a big favour and left your wife out of it. It wasn’t her fault. I still want to make you suffer though.