Paula Benacerraf had no memory of waking.

Suddenly, she was aware of herself again. It was as simple, and as brutal, as that.

She was standing. Everything seemed to be red. Her feet were cold.

She tried to look down, to see what she was standing on. When she moved her head, her eyes didn’t track properly, as if they were badly controlled automatic cameras, and her head seemed to slosh, a bag full of fluid.

The redness turned abruptly to grey, and there was a clamoring of bells in her ears.

The world tipped up around her. She saw a huge sky wheeling past, a sun like a dish of red light.

But it was taking so long, as if in a dream.

She collapsed gently against the ground, on her back. The landing was soft, but she could feel the spiky hardness of the ground, and where it pressed against her flesh, in a hundred places along the length of her body, it was ice cold.

Her heart’s hammering slowed, and some of the color leached back into the world.

That sun, straight above her, was immense. Much bigger in the sky than Earth’s sun, it was huge and red and dim. The disc was mottled with spots, complex black pits surrounded by crimson-grey penumbrae. She held up her arms, and moved out her hands, to accommodate the sun’s disc. Her hands finished up a yard apart.

She remembered her last walk to Cronos. The water. The seed packet. Her choice to die.

Oh, shit,she thought. I’m alive.

She felt — disappointed. Life would go on. She was going to have to eat, and drink, and sleep, and maybe figure out what was happening to her.

She’d have to make choices. She’d thought that was all over, for her. She felt cheated.

She closed her eyes. But the world wouldn’t go away, the gritty reality of it in her lungs, under her back.

So where was she? A hospital?

In the open air?

She opened her eyes, and lifted her arms. She was clothed.

Her hands were bare, but her arms were encased in long sleeves of some translucent material, like golden-brown polythene. She pulled at the material; it gave a little, but would not stretch, and when she pinched at her cuff it was impossible to tear.

She reached up to her face. There was no covering: no helmet, no visor, no face mask.

…She was in the open air, unprotected.

The shock reached her. She felt a moment of panic; she felt her lungs constrict, as if she was drowning.

She forced herself to relax. She took away her hands, opened her mouth, and deliberately sucked air into her lungs.

She wasn’t in an EMU. But wherever the hell she was, there was evidently an oxygen-nitrogen atmosphere.

She put her arms flat against the chill ground and tried to push herself up. As soon as she got her head upright, the ringing and greyness returned.

“Take it easy.”

The voice startled her.

“Lie back for a while.” A head moved into her field of view above her, silhouetted against the broad face of the sun. It seemed hairless, and the neck and shoulders supporting it were swathed in some transparent substance that caught the light. “I don’t think they got your fluid balance quite right. Orthostatic intolerance. It took me a couple of minutes to adjust, but it passes.”

“Rosenberg. I should have expected you.”

“Yeah.” He knelt down beside her. “Yeah, it’s me — I think.” He was wearing some translucent all-in-one coverall, which left only his hands and head free. And he looked younger.

“Good grief, Rosenberg. What happened to your hair?”

He laughed. “The same as happened to my eyebrows, and nasal hair, and chest hair, and pubic hair… I guess they forgot to put it back.”

“They? Who are they?”

“One step at a time, Paula.”

“You don’t have your glasses.”

He touched his face, looking surprised. “So I don’t. I don’t seem to need them. They grew back my foreskin, too.”

“They?”

“How are you feeling? Do you think you can sit up?”

“I’d rather stand up. This ground is freezing my ass off.”

Rosenberg laughed. It was a brittle, icy sound. He got an arm under her armpit and lifted; with his help she scrambled to her feet. She still felt dizzy, and her heart pumped a lot harder than she’d been used to, but she wasn’t going to faint again.

She and Rosenberg were out in the open. No hospital. No buildings at all, in fact. They were standing on some kind of plain. It was coated with sparse, low vegetation — stunted dark green bushes, a little grass — but there were no people, no cars or houses. The air was clear and her vision was sharp; the horizon seemed close by.

Off to her right was a long, straight, grey-white cliff which slid towards each horizon.

That big balloon of a sun still hung directly overhead. The sky and land were drenched in a dull dried-blood red. There were high icy-looking cirrus clouds, draped over the roof of the sky; some of them cut across the face of the sun and glowed crimson, as if on fire.

The only sound was the soft hiss of a breeze over the spiky grass.

This ain’t Seattle, she thought, with gathering dismay.

And Rosenberg—

Under his golden-brown translucent coverall, Rosenberg was naked.

He clamped his hands over his private parts. “Will you stop staring at my dick?”

She touched her scalp. It was bald and smooth, the skin cold to her touch. She glanced down. Under a translucent suit, past the low swell of her breasts, she could see her pubic mound, as bare as Rosenberg’s.

“Shit,” she said. She covered her breasts and groin with her arm and hands, while Rosenberg kept his hands clamped over his balls.

They stared at each other. “This is ridiculous,” she said at last.

“I agree. I won’t stare if you don’t.”

“It’s a deal.”

Deliberately, she lowered her arms; she looked him resolutely in the eye.

He laughed again. “A hell of a thing. We cross billions of years, and we bring all our dumb primate taboos with us.” His voice was brittle. Almost hysterical. And—

And he’d said, billions of years. “How long? Where the hell are we, Rosenberg? How did we get here, from there?”

“One step at a time, Paula. Come on.”

He turned away, and began walking slowly across the plain. His footsteps lifted him up in the air, so that he bounded forward in a series of short half-hops, Moonwalk style.

Oh,she thought.

This wasn’t even Earth, then.

She started to feel scared.

“Where are we going?”

“Damned if I know.”

She felt an absurd reluctance to move away from here, the place she’d come awake. As if she ought to wait here, on this anonymous patch of a uniform plain, until somebody came by to tell her what to do.

She sat down, ignoring the cold.

She didn’t want any of this. Choices, a structured world to figure out, even a relationship to manage. The hell with it. I did all this once.

She lay down and curled up, burying her head in her arms.

I want to go home, she thought. To Seattle. And if I can’t go home, I don’t want to be here.

But the world wouldn’t go away. She couldn’t even go to sleep, the ground was too hard and cold.

She opened her eyes.

The plain, the big red sun, Rosenberg waiting patiently, squatting on his haunches, a few yards away.

She got angry. She kicked at the ground, dug out great handfuls and threw the dirt around, rubbed it over her bare scalp. “Why couldn’t you leave me alone, damn it…?”

She got tired quickly. She stood there, panting, hot inside the suit, dripping bits of dirt.

Rosenberg just waited. He didn’t even watch her.

Reluctantly, she walked up to him. He got up, and walked on, and she followed.

Sensory impressions crowded in on her, unwelcome, forcing her to think, to analyse.