Later, as he pressed food into his slowly chewing mouth, Cato sighed with irritation as his thoughts turned to the problem of his idiot son and Renius. He remembered watching the man fight in the arena and shivered deliciously as he pictured a controlled savagery that had shocked even the baying crowd of Rome to silence. A man who risked his life so cheaply would not be easy to turn. What could he offer for his son? The boy general, Brutus, was heavily in debt. Perhaps gold would sway him. Power was such a fickle thing, and where money and influence failed, as he thought they must, he would need such useful tools as Antonidus. It would have been a shame to lose him.
Alexandria paused before knocking on the gate of the estate she had known so well. The five miles from the city had been a little like turning back time for herself. She had last stood there as a slave, and memories flooded her. Being whipped by Renius, kissing Gaius in the stables, working until she dropped in wind and rain, killing men with a kitchen knife in the darkness under the walls at the height of the riots. If Julius hadn't taken her into the city, she could be working there still, broken by the years.
Old faces came back to her and the intervening time seemed to vanish, so that it took every bit of her courage to raise her hand and thump it into the heavy wood.
“Who is there?” a strange voice called, accompanied by quick footsteps to the top of the wall within. A face she did not know looked down at her, carefully blank as the slave took in her appearance and the little boy who held her hand. She raised her head defiantly under this scrutiny, looking back as confidently as she could despite her racing heartbeat.
“Alexandria. I have come to see Tubruk. Is he here?”
“Please wait for a moment, madam,” the slave replied, disappearing.
Alexandria took a quick breath. He had judged her as a freewoman. She straightened her shoulders further, her confidence growing. It would be hard to face Tubruk, and she had to force herself to be calm as she waited. Octavian remained silent, still angry at the decision they had made for him.
When Tubruk pushed open the gate and came out to her, she almost wilted, gripping Octavian's hand hard enough to make him yelp. The man seemed unchanged, still the same as the rest of the world swept wildly onward. His smile was genuinely friendly and she felt some of her tension ease.
“I heard you were doing well,” he said. “I can have some food brought if you're hungry.”
“Thirsty, after the walk, Tubruk. This is Octavian.” Tubruk bent down to look at the small boy as he edged behind Alexandria, looking worried.
“Good morning, lad. I expect you are hungry?” Octavian nodded convulsively and Tubruk chuckled. “I never knew a boy who wasn't. Come inside, I'll have refreshments brought to us.”
Tubruk paused in thought for a moment.
“Marcus Brutus is here,” he said, “and Renius with him.”
Alexandria stiffened slightly. The name of Renius carried bitter memories. Brutus, too, was a name from her forgotten past; sweetness mixed with pain. She gripped Octavian tightly as they passed through the gate, more for her own comfort than his.
The courtyard brought bright memories back to her with a small shudder. She had stood… there, to stab a man who grabbed at her, and Susanna had died over by the gate. She shook her head and took a deep breath. It was too easy to become lost in the past, here of all places.
“Is the mistress at home?” she asked.
Tubruk's expression changed slightly as he replied, making him look older. “Aurelia is very unwell. You won't be able to see her, if that's what you want.”
“I'm sorry to hear that, but it was you I came to see.”
He led them into a quiet room that she had rarely entered in her time as a slave. The floor was warm and the room felt comfortable and lived in. Tubruk left them to arrange a meal and she began to relax even further as they waited alone. Octavian fidgeted irritably, scuffing his sandals on the rug until Alexandria stopped his swinging feet with a firm grip on his knee.
When Tubruk returned, he put down a tray with a jug and bowls of freshly sliced fruit. Octavian fell on it with delight, and Tubruk smiled at the boy's enthusiasm as he sat down and waited for Alexandria to speak.
“It's about Octavian that I want to speak to you,” she said after a pause.
“Would you like me to have someone show him the stables?” Tubruk replied quickly.
She shrugged. “He knows what I'm going to say.”
Tubruk filled a cup with cool apple juice for her, and she sipped at it as she collected her thoughts.
“I own a part share in a metalsmith's in the city, and we took Octavian on as an apprentice. I won't lie to you and say he was perfect. He was almost wild for a while, but he's a different boy now.” She was interrupted by the sight of Octavian trying to cram melon slices into his mouth. Tubruk saw her look and stood suddenly.
“That's enough for now, lad. Go and find the stables. Take a couple of the apple pieces for the horses.”
Octavian looked at Alexandria, and when she nodded, he grinned and scooped up a handful of the fruit, disappearing out of the room without another word. His footsteps echoed for a moment, then all was still again.
“He doesn't remember his father, and he was a street urchin when we took him in. You should see how he's changed, Tubruk! The boy is fascinated by the skills Tabbic teaches him. He's good with his hands and in time I think he could make a fair craftsman.”
“So why have you brought him to me?” Tubruk prompted gently.
“We haven't been able to let him out onto the street for nearly a month now. Tabbic has to walk him home each evening and then come back alone in the dark. The streets aren't safe even for him these days, but Octavian has been badly beaten three times since we took him on. The first time, he had a silver ring stolen, and we think they look for him in case he is carrying something else. There's a gang of boys involved. Tabbic has complained to their masters when he knows who they are, but the third beating came right after that. It's breaking the lad, Tubruk. Tabbic made him a knife but he wouldn't take it. He said they'd kill him with it if he pulled a blade on the gang, and I think he's probably right.” She took a deep breath to continue.
“His mother is desperate and I said I would ask you if you'd take him and teach him a trade. We hoped you could have him work around the estate for a year or two, then when he's older, we could take him back to the shop and he could continue with the apprenticeship.” She felt she was babbling and came to a halt. Tubruk looked down at his hands and she went on hurriedly, unwilling to let him speak and refuse.
“His family are related to Julius distantly. Their grandfathers were brothers or something, or brothers-in-law. You're the only one I know who can get him away from the street gangs, Tubruk. It will save his life. I wouldn't ask if there was anyone else, but…”
“I'll take him,” Tubruk said suddenly. Alexandria blinked in surprise and he chuckled. “Did you think I wouldn't? I remember when you risked your life for this house. You could have run away and hidden in the stables, but you didn't. That is enough for me. There's always work around an estate like this, even though we've lost a bit of land since you were last here. He'll earn his food, don't worry. Will you leave him here today?”
Alexandria felt like throwing her arms around the old gladiator. “Yes, if you like. I knew I could depend on you. Thank you. Will you let his mother visit him from time to time?”
“I will have to ask Aurelia, but it should be possible as long as it isn't too frequent. I'll tell her about the family link. She'll probably love the idea.”